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Jun 20, 2018
Claire Nicole McCoy was born on November 1, 2001. A failed forceps delivery, resulting in an emergency c-section. Claire sustained severe brain bleeds. She had a 30% chance of survival. We did not know what the outcome would be. The neurologist told us she may have problems in school and difficulty in driving. Over the next year, our hopes diminished. We asked God to please let her not be blind. He said no. We asked God to please help her not to have a feeding tube. He said no. We asked God to please help her to be able to sit up and walk. He said no. Why would the God Aaron and I have trusted for so many years do this to our precious daughter?!!! WHY?!! We both were so angry at Him and I, especially, hated Him. For several years I hated God and turned my back on Him. He didn't do anything, anyway, and why trust a God that would allow this to happen to our precious baby? We were in the ER every week, as Claire aspirated her milk from feeds and got pneumonia. Seizures were constant. Aaron and I struggled through our marriage, as I was so bitter and angry. Lily was such a light, but had to endure all of the pain in our family. We were in the hospital much of the time and Lily just wanted to be there with us. Claire was and is well loved by the nurses and doctors. They have seen her grow up into a beautiful, loving teenager. Being the incredible husband that Aaron is, he sought counseling and Bible study for troubled marriages. He made sure we never missed an appointment or Bible study. One day, and I remember it clearly, I felt I needed to make a choice. Was I going to trust God, the One Who told me He would never leave nor forsake me? The One Who's Son died for my past, present, and future sins and allows me to have a relationship with Him? Spend eternity with Him? Or was I going to continue to turn my back on Him and trust myself, doctors, nurses, and anything else we could do to help Claire? And believe me, I thought long and hard about it. That day I decided to trust God. I slowly started reading my Bible again and would try to have a quiet time with Him. Since Aaron and I have trusted Him, we have seen the big picture. We see that God does have a plan for Claire, and the rest of our family. We see that it is a GOOD plan. He has taken the broken pieces of our hearts and put them back together again, making us stronger, as we've trusted in Him. Our circumstances continue to be difficult and have even gotten more difficult over the past couple of years, with dialysis and the upcoming kidney transplant. However, we have true peace and joy. We have surrendered our lives to Him Who loves us and will never leave us. We have learned that He IS in control and His Ways are perfect. Even though we may or may not understand everything in this lifetime. We have seen this proven over the years, and He has NEVER let us down. He is always faithful, even when we are not. We have a precious family and Claire is PERFECT. We would not change one thing! None of us would. We have seen many people trust God because of Claire. We've seen God heal and make our marriage strong. We've seen how God has used Claire in Lily's life to make her the beautiful, caring person she is, having such a heart for special needs children. So... this is Claire's and our history. We feel we needed to share this and are happy to! This upcoming surgery will be a difficult one for Claire. As many of you know Aaron will be donating a kidney to Claire on June 19. We will need your prayers. I'll update any information and prayer requests for Claire and Aaron on the next post.