Brenda Murray

SEASONS OF GRIEF AND SUFFERING 


What a year/season!!After having gone thru my 3rd back fusion surgery in April, I now believe my HEAVENLY FATHER has given me the backbone to bear the burden I carry now.What I thought was the side effects of my fusion surgery were in fact the faint disquiet of a lurking menace, the cancer in my pancreas and liver. The absolute TOTAL astonishment we initially faced with the diagnosis has since been replaced with the classic stages of grief. I am going thru my daily routines at times in a shell shocked state---- there but not there.I am starting chemo on Thursday the 16th,so we hope for a favorable outcome as far as extending my life,managing pain and a possibility of a better quality of life.Reality is that this IS an incurable disease TODAY ,so while our hope and faith are strong we also aren't putting our heads in the sand.Prayer is a powerful tool,so as we walk through this personal Jerusalem in our lives hold us near and with love.Should my cross be too heavy to bear,and I find myself stumbling or falling I will try and remember to allow you to help pick me up and set me on my way again. Resurrection awaits to another step I'm my life's journey, one way or another. I'll try not to isolate or hunker down,but my humanness overwhelms me right now.Gods grace and light will overcome, I'm sure.Peace to all,and if no one else has told you today that they LUV YOU TODAY, well----I do.