So the scoop is this. I had a bad cold in December- they took an x-ray to look for pneumonia and instead found enlarged lymph nodes near my heart. The cold was unrelated. Between December 20th (the day I was told it could be lymphoma) and today I have had three biopsies. The first two did not produce enough tissue to determine certain lymphomas.
Today was a more invasive surgery to obtain enough. Because of course this bugger isn't in a convenient spot! Enough tissue was obtained and is positive for a lymphoma.
Although nobody wants to hear this news, I have been trying to prepare myself since December 20th for the possibility. That night was also our children's Christmas concert. I was numb, but determined to enjoy this festivity and be strong for my kids until I found the right words to tell them.
I got an additional gift that night. I scanned the gymnasium and picked out all the other strong, amazing women in our small community who have also fought cancer and survived. This group includes my primary physician. I contacted them the next day, and they ALL gave me what I needed. Little pieces here and there. For this I am blessed. Thank you.
In addition, what incredible family, friends and co-workers I have! For this I am blessed.
Don't yet know the road ahead, but I'm ready.
Lord, thank you, I love you. My lesson is clear and I know where you and I stand.
Hugs to all of you - your kindness and concern makes my cup runneth over.