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Nov 5, 2016
The day began with a routine annual mammogram then off to work for the day to then be called back 30 minutes later to see if I could come back for an ultrasound as there was an abnormal finding!
Found myself being comforted by an RN and Radiologist who were both breast cancer survivors. Why were they placed in my life at that time? I only knew that something was not right. I was calm throughout even though my intuition knew that the tumor found in the ultrasound was not normal. They both stayed to talk with me for a long while after. I told them that if this is what was dealt to me, I would move forward in a direction to fight this as I did with Hodgkin's Disease 30 years ago. It was a few days later that I received a phone call from Jackie, Dr. Larry Einhorn's nurse, that it was confirmed as breast cancer (found out a few days later that it was Stage 1, Triple Negative). Emotional as it was, I then had to share this with my family and friends.
To my loved ones, both family and friends, please promise me that you will go for your annual mammograms or share the need for this with your loved ones.
As determined of a person I am, I am not going to give up. This is the last time I will ever hear I have cancer again! I chose to have a bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction (just wait – Double D, here I come!). The tumor is very small with two little sisters on my right breast. We are not talking chemotherapy, nor radiation. My plans are to go thru my surgery with a very positive attitude. More will be told during surgery with more testing. I plan to hear the word “success” when I wake up after surgery knowing all of my surgeons with their golden hands did the best job possible. I will deal if I have to. I am most excited about my team of doctors at IU Health, Dr. Kathy Miller, breast oncologist, Dr. Linda Han, breast surgeon, Dr. Brett Hartman, plastic surgeon and Dr. Richard Zellars, Radiation Oncologist. I feel lucky already.
I do always try to find the message in any negative events. What I found in this one is how stress has played an unhealthy role in my life. I have been given the chance to make a change to de-stress and am determined to do that.
Goals in my life did change. I realized the importance of flexibility. I pray that in 6 months, those goals will become reality. Brett, my most fabulous boyfriend, and I bought a 2 bedroom condo. Something impulsive which is not our norm. We were going to downsize to a one bedroom, but after my diagnosis we felt it best to have a 2 bedroom for guests and to have a place down the road for access to my wonderful doctors. By the way, we moved two weeks ago and loving every moment of our new space!
Please keep me in your prayers. In advance, I would like to thank each and every one of you for your continued support.