Hello, Friends - Thank you for walking this path with me. I am able to move forward only with my faith, your prayers, our laughter and your words. Please share your words with me, whether you are an eloquent wordsmith or not. To hear you say "I don't know what to say" is a good place to start as, many times, I don't know what to say or think myself. I've never been on the fast track to death before. Sometimes I freak out and sometimes I find humor in the oddest places. Having you with me helps me to keep living rather than to ponder my demise. I do have a very aggressive form of cancer that is raging in my gut and, currently, causing me tremendous physical pain at times. Chemo no longer works and I'll soon start a new drug regimen called Avastin that we hope will give me a better quality of life in the months and maybe years that I have left to spend with you. Let's hope it buys me a few more years. Am I scared? Damn Skippy I am! Figuring out WHAT I fear is the task at hand. Keep holding my hand. I need you with me even if only in spirit and prayer as I face this AFGO that has been set on my shoulders. For those who don't already know, AFGO stands for Another Fekkin' Growth Opportunity...which is an attempt to face it with my sense of humor firmly intact. So let's grow and learn together how one person, me in particular, chooses to LIVE while she dies.