I made all of the arrangements for Thursday's trip to NYC. Unfortunately I only have one precious day of vacation left and I am saving that day for the next round of full scans. So, Zach's mom will be taking him for his MRI. I will spend that day at work but, I will be filled with concern and anxiety and I probably won't be very productive! The past couple months have been calm and everything has been done at home. I have become functional at work again and I am appreciative that I have a job. Having to be in Rochester when Zach is in NYC getting tests is hard for me to deal with. I hope that the MRI does not reveal any serious problem with the Ommaya and they will just watch it. I know that is not how things go in the cancer world, something will be wrong and all plans will go out the window. I got into a "discussion" last night with someone that scolded me for not being more optimistic about the situation. Zach has been going through this for three years. There are always complications, concerns, precautions, risks, and procedures to deal with. It is very seldom, if ever, that his cancer can be put aside and our lives can proceed smoothly. I don't view myself as overly pessimistic, I'm just being realistic, from experience.
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