Hello everyone, I've been thinking about what I could write and I kept thinking of when Tyler was in the hospital... When Tyler was in the hospital he really tried his best to make it as easy for me as possible. As many of you know Tyler and I were usually awake most of the night, if not all night. We would go to sleep in the morning and sleep until late afternoon or early evening. In the mornings and early afternoon the nurses and doctors would make their rounds and usually want to talk to me about something even if it was as simple as going home that day. If Tyler were ever awake before me he wouldn't usually let anyone wake me up. Tyler would tell everyone that mom needed to rest and not to wake her up. There were many, many times when Tyler and I would be laying in his bed cuddling and he would press his nurse button without even saying anything to me. I would ask him what he needed and most of the time he wouldn't tell me, he would just look at me and smile. His nurse would come in the room and ask what can I do for you Tyler and he would say, I just need an apple juice. He loved his nurse button and if he could press his button and have someone else get him something and not have to make me get up, he always did. Tyler wanted me to "rest". Whenever I left the hospital he was always a trooper. As long as he had a playstation then he was good to go. I really miss Tyler and am trying to come to a conclusion of why... why did he have to have cancer... why did he have to be one of the ones that didn't make it.... why did he have to suffer? I know that I'll get all my answers one day, but until then why? I suppose I will close for now. Thanks for checking on us and keeping us in your thoughts.
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