Happy 4th everyone..
Enjoy your day with your family and friends!! Iam so thankful we have freedom, that I was lucky enough to be born into a country where we can celebrate the 4th of July!!

I have been so busy doing wedding stuff, Our wedding is in 7 days!! I'm absolutely drained! I will actually be happy when its over, Its been so much work, and to be honest so many times I have thought how in the hell is all of this fair, I really wanted her here for all of this, I wanted her here for everything, My wedding, 4th of July, 6th grade.............God had other plans, and I don't understand them at all..............Someday I will have all the answers but for right now that doesn't help.

I still check on alot of families on here, and my heart aches for them when I hear of another child suffering another family going through hell, fighting for their child to live...This should not be happening still, how unfair that so many of us had to watch a beautiful child full of life healthy as can be get so damn sick from cancer, cancer treatments, bone marrow transplants, all of the other medicines, we fight like hell to save them, they fight like hell for their lives, and then we have to bury them, knowing they can no longer come to us, the next time we see them we will have to go to them, when god decides its our time, so how do you keep going for the rest of your life with pain you cant even describe..

I dont know so many days I ask myself how do you keep going, and do it all with a smile...


Have a great 4th, hugs!