My mom started hospice today. She is now resting peacefully here at home. I think this will mostly be her state from here on out. Of course (and fortunately), I have no experience with death. The oncologist had told us that she would go quickly, in a couple days after stopping the TPN. Hospice has said that it often is longer, 6-7 days. Or more. Or less. It is humbling. We may think we know a lot in this world. But this we don’t and can’t know. We accept that. Mysterious ways.
I do know this though. It is a privilege to be one of three people whom my mom most wants to see. And also Dad of course. To be able to soothe and calm her. To be able to make her smile. It is also a given, something I never doubt because she is my mom. That is what makes a relationship with a mother so special. Only Josh, James, and I share this special relationship. She is the only person in the world who I will ever have this treasured connection to. My mom in turn shares this special relationship with her mom along with her brothers and sisters. I love you mom. We love you mom.
Wisconsin won today. I’m sure I saw my mom respond and smile when we told her that. We declined to share the Michigan result.
I don’t know if I will write daily updates. I’ll definitely write another important one- don’t worry about that. So you will know if there is news. You all have been so loyal.
But now my most important reader will not be reading this entry tomorrow. It takes the wind out of my sails a bit. So I’m not sure. I know I can always write if I feel like it and tell you what we ate: Uncle Bill’s lasagna and Uncle Tom’s DeConcini tomato sauce since you must be curious. Our family is taking good care of the five of us.
Thank you for all of your support and love. We treasure that so many people care about mom, that so many people have their own meaningful relationships with her.
Jen, James, Josh, Mark, and Suzanne