There are moments in the day when I wonder "How in the world am I going to balance all that I have to do?" Yet somehow, it works out. Tonight, I was "in charge" of Steve starting at 7:30 which is also the girls time for bed. I was running up and down the stairs, reading for 10 min then checking on Steve, then going back upstairs reading for 10 min and then checking on Steve. Needless to say, I got my 10,000 steps in today :). I finally got the girls down, and it was time for Steve's 8pm meds. We have 3 dogs, and they follow right behind me at all times. I went into Steve's room and two of them jumped up on his bed which was kind of cute but also kind of "in the way." I decided to shut them out of the room and put a hamper in front of the door to keep them out. They instantly began whining at the door as if I had been gone for hours. I started getting all of Steve's meds and feedings ready and then he began having myoclonus (which makes the meds go back up the tube in the wrong direction). I placed my knee on his left arm , kept my hands on the tube and meds, and started counting with him to help slow down the myoclonus. At the same time, the meds stopped flowing and started backing up the tube, then he started coughing so I had to kink the tube at the same time my knee was on his arm and my other hand was uncapping his trach. As you can imagine, it looked like I was playing Twister on his bed. I told myself "God doesn't give you more than you can handle (although sometimes that feels really hard to believe)," and I told Steve to try to calm down because I can't do "two things at once." I was getting a little frustrated when I started hearing "mom" from upstairs which I obviously couldn't handle at the moment. I then literally told Steve "ok maybe I can do 3 things at once but not four." Then, the dogs burst through the blocked door and jumped up on the bed jarring Steve, the meds, and myself. We all just started laughing; I mean seriously that had to have been a Kodak moment!
Today's Jesus Calling said, "When I gave you My Spirit, I empowered you to live beyond your natural ability and strength." Amen!
Please send up loads of prayers this week for Steve's 24 hour nursing coverage to be restored. His case is being reviewed and I really hope they understand what a juggling act this is for me and what a fine balanced line I'm walking at all times.