Well… It’s been nearly 3 weeks since Dad has passed. Although 3 weeks at times feels like “3 weeks,” it also feels like “days, months, years.” Now that we’ve had a few weeks to digest the loss of “Dad, husband, Bompa,” all of us have felt a rollercoaster of emotions. I feel as if the wake and funeral and even the first week of Dad’s passing was a “blur” – everything felt so surreal – like a dream – I was numb to all of the events and in some ways still feel the same. In case you may not get the Sun Sailor and/or Pioneer newspapers - there was an article on the front page about Dad- while it's very uplifting - it would of been nice to see a front page story on Dad under different circumstances. As I stated in my previous journal – nothing could have been any more perfect with the arrangements – yet at the same time I couldn’t help but think “oh I hope Dad is watching this.” Over the past few months all of us have learned lots of “life’s lessons.” There is not a book nor blueprint on “How To Grieve” and there are many steps throughout the grief process. There are times we feel broken-hearted, helpless and lifeless... The toughest hurdle is thinking when will life feel “normal” again? How come the clock keeps ticking and the world keeps moving forward when life feels rather unfair? As we look back over the past few months and read through our first journal entries and look back at Christmas photos – we all think “how can this be, how did this happen?” The question most asked by all of us is “why do bad things happen to good people?” a question asked over and over again by millions all over the world… While there isn’t necessarily a “right” answer to this question – the next question becomes “how am I going to live my life, now that this has happened?” One of my biggest learnings has been to stop obsessing over things that I truly “can’t fix” – this is LIFE in all of its chaos, frustration, joy, sadness and fear. I’ve learned that now is the time to live life in abundance and to love like you’ve never loved. Our family can’t stress enough the importance of spending more time with your family and friends – tell them you love them – you really care about them – spend less time at work. Life can change directions in the blink of an eye... Another HUGE thanks to everyone for checking in with our family and keeping us in your thoughts and prayers – yes Fathers Day was a difficult day – yet our motto is simple, “live day by day.” It’s as simple as that – one day at a time…
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