Stanley Rutledge's Journal
Written Jul 25, 2012 12:02pmThis horrible, aggressive, nightmare of a cancer was too much. He crossed over at 1:00 AM, July 24, 2012.Oh honey. I will miss you.I love you.
Written Jul 20, 2012 8:31amFrom Tuesday until this morning he's been okay. In pain from time to time but no violent side effects from the chemotherapy. This morning they started. He's sick at his stomach and just cramping and aching all over at about 7 a.m.He's so strong. So brave. He tries not to let me see how bad it is for him, but I see. All I can do is rub his back, bring him cool cloths, just be there. I wish I could take this pain from him. I'm helpless here, and I just wish I could take his pain.He got through that wave of nausea and pain and now his meds have kicked in and he's gone back to sleep.He's in his recliner. We have Bonnie's recliner next to his so we can sit near him. The loveseat is on the other side, then of course, the sofa is across from him. Last night, the kids surrounded him. They slept in that circle. Mal on the loveseat, Mik on the couch and Joel in the recliner. They love him so much. And he loves them. If love could cure this, he wouldn't be sick another second.
Written Jul 19, 2012 7:49amI can't remember the names of the chemo drugs they have him on. I thought they gave him 2 different ones, Bonnie was reading the papers they gave me afterwards, and said there were three.They say he will lose his hair, and have some vomiting and diariah, but they gave him medicines that will hopefully counter that.So far so good. He had it Tuesday, today is Thursday. They said that the side effects will hit within 3 to 5 days after. He is still in great spirits, insists he's going to beat this. He's amazing. Such a sweet gentle man.He tries to beat me in Rummy.. we play a lot of Rummy. He was kicking my butt until day before yesterday. Maybe today he'll move on ahead.He woke me at 5:30 this morning wanting something for pain. They increased the dose on his pain medication Monday.. now it's an hour before he should need it that he's asking for it. I'll keep an eye on it today and if he's still asking before it's time I'll call his oncologist and get it increased again. I can't bear seeing him in pain. And they told me he doesn't have to suffer, they can control the pain with meds. THANK GOD.So far, so good.