Well, it is almost Mother's Day. What a terrible feeling to be slighted by life and not have the children you brought in to bring you breakfast in bed. I sit here and watch Leyana (intently watching a movie) and what is it that is missing? Sister Sophia. We went shopping tonight and the most awful part of finding outfits is wishing for another child to buy the cute little outfits for.

Second story was that this morning at breakfast I was eating with Leyana. We were eating leftovers from our early morning Perkins run..and well I looked over and said shhhh, I am enjoying eating my breakfast with my youngest child, I meant alive....she looked at me and said You mean Sophia, Sophia is your youngest child. She then came over and looked at her in my photo locket.

Life is funny isn't it? I miss her more each day, finally in my head I am growing to realize that she is gone forever from my life and that the worry of the day when she would get better is also gone. Somehow you hope it didn't really happen. So for the past two years I have hoped I would wake up someday and know that it didn't really happy and that we are gonna get her back....alas, resolution.

I love ya all, thanks for loving us.

Thanks to God for my family: Anthony a wonderful man who stuck by us all when he could have fled from us. Nicolas, who is still figuring it all out, why our twists and turns are sometimes really twisty. Leyana, who is staying with us in spite of our hard loving style. She is so in love with life and with Sophia it helps.

LOVE:

Jesika Lee