Hola Campeon,
The Greatest Sebastian ever!!!!!
Yesterday was 10 months, it is incredible for me to believe and to accept it and to understand it....I just do not get why you are not here with us....why things happened so fast....???
You and God only know the unthinkable explanation...
But there are not so bad news for me at least for now which are comforting words for you. For months I had little or no interest in continuing my own journey without your presence. My advanced and fast moving Alzheimers is improving slowly meaning that I am not forgetting people's names and appointments as I used to. I started working to stay busy and to make your mommy and Isabela happy. I am also giving very little importance to (some) people's non-sense comments about your departure and what is going to come next.....Nobody knows what is coming....!!!! But you do...
But what I know is that going to the pool, playing ping-pong, riding on the ATV's, going to soccer games, watching baseball, dinning out, shooting sporting clays, flying on an airplane, traveling, going to the beach, buying groceries, riding in the car to anywhere, playing with Frank, walking through the isles by the toys in the stores, watching TV, cooking, grilling, mowing the grass, picking up the mail, working in the yard, going to the bank, fishing, going to the lake, riding horses, visiting our relatives, playing with your cousins, doing payroll, driving through any hospital, talking to a Medical Doctor, entering my workshop to work or to feed Frank, walking around our home and many more give me fatigue, anxiety, sadness, tears, anger and lots of confusion.....but I have your wonderful memories that will remain with me forever and ever and they are the ones that keep me going, Thanks...!!!!
I feel your constant presence all the time but cannot heal the frustration of not being able to touch, talk, play, share, hug and kiss you. I wish I had spent more time with you.....
I love you son.....
Bye Sebastian....
Tu Papa.
