Hello everybody. This is Sandy (Scott's wife). I have been asked a number of times to update in Scott's journal. For those of you who don't know, Scott went to be with our Lord in Heaven on Nov 8th 2008. It was his decision and I supported him. We went to Cleveland OH to be evaluated for retransplant. The second day into it, he woke up that morning and told me he didn't want to do it anymore. After 2hrs of him trying to explain to me what he meant by that we got back on the plane and came home. I realize now he was worse off than I wanted to think. I thought we would go, get evaluated, listed and in no time get retransplanted. Just like the first time. What a shocker to me. He was sure of his salvation and knew he couldn't go anymore. We came home from Ohio on Oct 23rd and he passed away on Nov 8th. He did not struggle and he did not fight the next BIG THING that was in store for him. Scott has spent most of his life acting as though there was nothing wrong with him. If he woke up that morning it meant he had work to do. He has done more in his short lived life than most healthy people do their entire life. What a blessing he was to me. He taught me alot about living. I know I don't have to go into detail about what all he has accomplished, most of you know that already. The one thing I do want to point out, the first and only day we were at the hospital for evaluation he told the pulmonologist he would do it over again to have that one good year again. Along with "living his life to the fullest", he also knew he had been given a second chance at life. He did not worry about what about this and what about that and what's going to happen in the future. He let God handle all that. He made good use of what he had while he had it. I would love for my husband to still be here with me and I am at a total loss without him. He is with Jesus in Heaven now and I would never take that greatness away from him. As I struggle from day to day and I learn to cope with his absence please know that I genuinely appreciate each and every prayer that has gone up for Scott and myself and our family. God will see us through and it is through Him that we can celebrate Scott's homegoing. I will see him again soon. Thank you, Sandy Fouts
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