Thanks to all of you and my awesome family for the birthday wishes. While I certainly enjoyed my time with family, it was one of the most difficult days that I've had yet. Last year on my b-day we went and hung out at Carlos E Queso (Chuck E Cheeses). This year we finished out the Kid's Crusade (like vacation bible school) at church. Hayley had a blast. I must've cried half the day and felt like I was going to cry the other half. Thursday we left for Fredericksburg. We went so I could meet some guys from church on a Men's Outing and play golf there. They changed their course and played in Fredericksburg. I'm not sure they drove for 30-40 minutes just to make it easy on me or if they wanted a different course, but I really appreciate them doing it. That way Theresa and Hayley were able to keep the truck. Theresa and Hayley shopped in Fredericksburg and had fun. My golf game was pretty rough (as usual) but I just love being out in the beautiful manicured outdoors with a bunch of nutty guys and cutting up! We drove home on Friday. On the way home I noticed Theresa was crying. She told me it was the first time she had went home on I-10 since we lost Ryan. There are sooo many places we had stopped at over the years and so many things to remember about doing and saying to him on the road. Today her cousin and family came over. They weren't able to make the funeral. It was good to visit. Uncle Mark and Aunt Bridget came by as did Meme and Grandpa. We all had a lot of fun. We watched Ryan's powerpoint and that was rather difficult for me. When I see pictures, I just remember how much we were able to hug him and love him and I miss doing that so badly. I was so proud to be a part of his life. I even enjoyed helping take care of him. We didn't have to be doing anything grand, just hangin' with him was grand. I mentioned in my little speech at his Saturday service, people just liked to be associated with and around him. He was very magnetic. I keep thinking this is temporary and I can't wait until he comes back home to see us so I can tell him how much I miss him. Sometimes I think we have started accepting it just a little and then I fall apart again. I guess that's normal. That's what Theresa and I think. I hope you all have good church tomorrow. We will have a good bye for some dear friends who are moving. The Flora family is moving from our church. Cheryl, the mom, sang at Ryan's Friday night service. I have always been honored to get to sing with her. We will miss their family. God bless you, He reigns.
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