×

CaringBridge Is Funded by People Like You

Make a donation to CaringBridge

Honor ronda with a tax-deductible contribution to CaringBridge today.

Click here to make your donation.

The Game called LIFE......

Another live write......Oh no....you know something has happened then. 


So, I have a routine...I get dressed for my workout session, pack my "real" clothes in a bag and head out looking like I'm ready to tackle a treadmill or at the very least too lazy to do my hair and put on my makeup (no eyebrows for me in the morning).  I cruise into work taking an hour or so,  hit the treadmill, rowing machine, weights, etc........I find workouts online or in Oxgen magazine.  I look silly at times and caught one of the guys watching me......I asked him the next day if he was going to laugh and watch me workout again.  He smiled and said...." I didn't know what you were doing...."   Yep, me neither buddy.  LOL. 


So today....the same plan.  get up, get coffee, drive in, workout, work, drive home.......but there was another plan.  This crazy thing happened that changed today completely.  IT..................................


Rained


So there went my commute.....1 hour turned into 2.5 and I had to laugh.....I talked to my sister, mom, myself a few times......my friend Karen and then I saw a name pop up on the screen   BRIANNA.   Bri and I have been friends since college.  I love her like a sister and  if I could not see her for years  we could just pick right up like no time had passed.  Her wedding was the best EVER, she is the most stylish around, and she is just one way cool chick and my sorority sister.  I will never forget a December 23rd evening spent at her parent's home waking up to a gourmet breakfast......I didn't want to leave.....EVER!  I cherish each and every memory from my college graduation to Ocean City, Maryland. 


When we went to the sorority reunion in Erie we had a blast.....and biked around Presque Isle the next day....truly like a tampon or Summer's Eve commercial......we danced, we celebrated, we slept, we worked out and we had Dairy Queen.  That night after the party she went back before me and I arrived to the aroma of PIZZA (YOU JUST ROCK).  I was starving and it hit the spot.  


We were talking and Brianna looked at me with tears and told me how she just couldn't imagine not having me in this world.....which made me cry because I can't imagine not being here either and sometimes things seem so surreal......we hugged, cried, and then laughed.   I LOVE YOU BRI......so this morning when Brianna called I knew what she was going to tell me.........


My/Our beautiful and amazing Friend and sorority sister died this morning.  I thought I was ready, I thought I was prepared.  I knew she was in hospice but I just hoped she would hold on........not during the holidays.....but today Julie Andrulonis Duttine left this world......leaving behind her husband and two small children.  Julie battled for a long time.....and supported her son when he battled cancer.  It's a tragedy........it's NOT fair, but I know it's life.


I don't want another "angel" watching over me.....I want her here......I want her to be able to see her sons go to their first dance, to make snowmen, pick them up from school,  to see them grow up, watch them fall in love, get their first kiss, to wipe their tears and to be able to hug and kiss them goodnight.........but sadly that isn't what God had in the plan.  I want to adjust His plans at times......if only I could.    


I know people say...."I'm sorry" but those words never come out of my mouth......and I hate to say "they lost" their battle........I know people are sorry, but it isn't their fault......I know she may have lost her life but she won the war because she fought as hard as she could.  (Please no offense to anyone.....these are just my thoughts and how "i think"). 


So today I cried....Brianna and I cried for the loss of our friend.  I happy she is no longer in pain, but I am selfish and want her here......the song says "only the good die young" and today I agree.  The world is a little less bright......and although the world keeps going on and life keeps moving......my World stopped today, if only for an instant. 


I love you Julie.....I thank you for being MY cheerleader during my battle.  I thank you for showing me what courage is and being a mentor and role model.  I will miss you............but most of all I am honored to have had you in my life.  So it rains.....tears from heaven and tears from all of us who have known you and had the fortune of having you in our lives.........a smile now because you are a ray of sunshine.  May you rest in Peace....................................