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How Ronda got her groove back

As always...I am out and about and just living my life.....my poor little blog and all of you following my story.........neglected. 

Well....quite simply put I feel like I am coming into  ME....that I am finally starting to feel like me again....the weather is changing (thank goodness due to my never ending hot flashes) and although the air is a bit chilly....it is pretty amazing.   I never thought I would still be here....that I would be lucky enough to be one of the few that are still here.......I'm stubborn I guess ( most that know me would agree).....and I just don't want to ever give up or lose HOPE....it is all that I have. 

I spend so much of my life now laughing, thinking and reminiscing.....Chemo is a pain, but a blessing and so many things that happen in life I don't have an answer for......but I watch and I learn and I realize how much I absolutely love being alive.......

To feel the cold air.....the rain.....the smell of the leaves......to hear the click of my heels and well.....to just be alive.  I just think about how lucky I am.....for today....for this moment.....to be sitting on my floor (not sure why i have couches) and typing with Tobi by my side.  She's old and grouchy (the dog, not me) and I wouldn't have her any other way. 

So each day and one moment at a time....I take a step forward and sometimes a few back to be ME.........for the first time in a long time I look in the mirror and see ME......I will never be the girl I was before, but finally, finally I feel like people see me and no longer see a diagnosis, a STAGE, a patient........they see a person.....just walking their dog, drinking their dunkin donuts coffee, and smiling.......

So as I get my groove back ( I wish I got my smaller figure back)....I just want to send my love out to everyone.....and a recent photo......the story will have to follow.......but just know that I send each and every one of you my love.  Fight......fight.....and NEVER EVER GIVE UP!!!!!