I echo Kari and Terri's thoughts, I wish there was something I could do to help ease your pain. I lost an aunt I was very close to almost two years ago to cancer and it helps to remember all the fun we had together and knowing that she is no longer suffering helps ease the pain a little. I'm sure you're going through something similar with Rick, he has left a tremendous void in so many people's lives, but now he's everyones angel.
Keeping busy in the coming days is a challenge I am sure. I don't know if you like Mexican food, but if you ever have an erge to go to Mazatlan, or just to get out of the house, all of us girls here are only a phone call away! As Kari and Terri said, we're all here for you :)
Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way,