Happy Birthday to Rich

I have learned that there is not a "right" or "wrong" way to grieve and cope with the loss of a loved one. Somedays bring happiness and laughter in recalling memories, and other days bring emptiness and tears. Until Rich's illness, our immediate families had never been exposed to the challenges that come with a cancer diagnosis, let alone the changes that have come with losing one to the terrible disease. I guess we are all learning to adapt to this new life in the best way that we know how.

Thankfully- there are so many of you who are not afraid to call and check-in, who email a kind word and who take the time to let me talk and cry. I cherish the memories and stories that continue to be shared. I can't begin to tell you how much I appreciate your kindness.

I personally find so much strength in knowing there are others out there who have braved this road, who have shown courage and who have continued in happiness. My sweet Grandma Monson lost her dear husband at a young age as well. She raised 6 wonderful children on her own. I admired her so much as a young adult. Now, as I put myself in her shoes, I understand her better and appreciate and love her, and her children so much more for their courage and strength.

Tomorrow is Rich's birthday- he would be turning 36. Several weeks ago I decided that I needed to do something fun with the boys to celebrate his special day. My sister and parents kindly arranged to bring us to the "happiest place on earth". We have been walking, sweating, eating, and living in the land of Disney all week. I loved hearing David, James and Joshua get excited tonight that it was Daddy's birthday tomorrow...they can't wait to celebrate in the "Magic Kingdom" where happiness is contagious. We had the chance to come to Florida as a family a few years ago, and it has been fun to recall the "good times" we had together. David asked in his prayers tonight that Dad might be able to be part of his party tomorrow...I know that he will be smiling down.