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Paxten’s Story

Well where do we begin?  On December 4th, 2010 we received some news every parent dreads to hear.  Our sweet baby girl Paxten Reede Pearson, born March 10, 2010 has leukemia.  Our world was turned upside down, however, we know that our God is a God of miracles and he made our sweet pea a fighter.  If anyone knows miss Paxten, than you know if anyone can beat this awful disease, it is her.  We began this website to keep everyone updated on her progress.



In mid-October we noticed Paxten had a strange red bump growing over her right eye.  We took her to two specialists and they both believed it was just a benign lesion that would go away on its own.  We didn't think too much of it.  Then on December 3rd, we noticed that her lymph nodes in her neck were extremely swollen and she had several unexplainable bruises on the top of her head.

Blake and I knew something was just not right so on Saturday, December 4th we brought her into the Wesley Hospital Emergency Room.  They drew some blood and ran a few tests; the results from these tests came to an ugly conclusion...Paxten has Leukemia.  Of course we did what any parents would do, we got mad, we cried, we asked why and then we asked what it will take to cure this disease.

That brings us to today.

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When your child is diagnosed with cancer, so are you.  When your child is in pain and getting chemo treatments. so are you.  When your child is fighting for their life and having a bone marrow transplant, so are you.  When you child sufficates from lung disease, so do you.  When your child has two types of fungus and is told their condition is unsurvivable, you wonder how you will survive.  When you child dies, so does a piece of you.


We go through every day answering "how are you?" with "were okay." What are we supposed to say? We know the reasons, Pax is in a better place, she was never ours, just a gift from God.  We know our faith and your faith are stonger because of Pax.  We know she is pain free in heaven. We know all this to be very true.  But, why us? Why our baby?  Why did God trust us to carry this pain?  We know that answer too.  We can carry it, We are strong in faith and each other.


But at 430 am, when your all alone, it's hard.  Your tired of putting on a strong front for every one else so they feel okay about it.  Your tired of living up to expectations.  I'm just tired.  I like the days and being busy, but I don't feel "real" and alive, until I am alone at night and feeling pain, all by myself.  Tomorrow I will smile but tonight I weep.  For my little girl.


Pax, I love you...Love you more than words can say.  Mommy and I will be there soon.  A minute is like a thousand years and a thousand years are like a minute, in heaven.  We miss you.   -Dad


I don't want comments or responses. We have opened our lives and feelings up through this site.  It is our outlet and journals.  Thank you all for the support you have shown us.