Nolan Bontke's Journal
Written Feb 24, 2014 11:02pm
Kind of a quiet day around here. Not much going on. Gizmo got scared of Playa and jumped into the bathtub, on top of me. Other than that, we were quiet.
I went to the Y and got in a good workout. I am trying to build some energy. The problem is that it takes energy to build energy. Still just making myself get up and go. I know one day it will be easier.
So many decisions lately. I am just placing them all in God's hands. I will know what to do by what transpires. I have stopped trying to guess what will happen. No clue.
Please keep praying for L. She is such a sweet sweet person. Truly a joy to know. A very wonderful woman passed away in Plainview. Everyone who knew her loved her. I remember when I was a young mother, she had a group meeting for us. I think it was called CALM. It was always such a joy to go and be with other young mothers. After I started back tochurch on Sunday nights, she came over to ask if I remembered her and told me she had been praying for us ever since the accident. How could I not remember someone like her. Heaven got a true treasure.
It is going to get cold again tomorrow. I already have logs in my wood stove. Ready for a little cool down. I like cold. So much better than hot.
Written Feb 23, 2014 9:36pm
I made it to church today!!!! It was great. Wonderful message on Praying Boldly. I am not so good at that. I sometimes feel that there are so many more deserving than me. But God does love us equally. I will work on praying boldly, confidently, specifically, continually, expectantly. And anticipate His answer with patience, trust and excitement for what lies ahead.
Keep up the prayers. L will have a tough week ahead. Pray God's best for all the family.
really tired today. Just plain tired
Written Feb 22, 2014 9:00pm
I hate to hear that the Olympics is coming to an end. I have enjoyed watching. It has been a different distraction around here. Now I have to go back to Ducks, Pawn Stars, Storage WArs, and House hunters. Hope they have new episodes.
Gizmo and I worked some more on the vanity. I am waiting on a stencil to come in and then after that, I can varnish it and finish it. I think it looks great. Just needs the finishing touches.
I promise Gizmo is going to fall off the bed onto Max and Max will eat him. He sits on the very edge looking over at Max. He used to be so good at staying right beside me. Now he wanders around. When it is time to sleep, he curls up beside me, but til then he checks out every viewpoint.
Some of the sweetest people ever brought Max and Playa a new doghouse today. It is made of pallets. It really is awesome. I can not believe how great it is. Now they have somewhere to go. I was not crazy about them being in the garage. I have all my varnishes and paints and stuff in there. I would hate for them to get into something. But you use what you have. Now we have an awesome doghouse. Such sweet people. They offered to come back out and help with anything I ever needed help with. And they meant it.
I think God has been sending messages again. Not in music, but in my devotion readings and even in the scripture pages that I have. I downloaded about 10 pages of scripture for encouragement. I read over several pages every night while waiting on the dogs to come in. So many scriptures just jumped out tonight on waiting, trust, being prepared for future. The book I am reading, tonight's chapter was on Trust. Exploring possible reasons for waiting. Perhaps God is preparing more things that are not ready yet. Perhaps he is preparing me and I am not ready yet. Perhaps he is keeping me safe from harm. Many possibilities. But ultimately, He has my best interests at heart and will let me know. I have free choice. I can choose to do whatever I want to. But I want my life to be where and what God has planned for me. Not what I plan. So waiting brings patience and trust. Both of which I need huge doses of. He seems to be telling me to day that it is my time of "not yet" and that is ok. Just relax and be ready. The relaxing part is the hardest. To be patient and wait. Another part that stuck out was in "Jesus Calling". He said that every day, thousands of times a day, I will face fear and doubt and worry. Just continue to pray and call His name thousands of times a day. Over every little thing, all day long. It will get easier and I will get stronger.
Please keep praying diligently for L. She is slowly making positive gains but has such a long way to go. God has plans for this family also. They are touching lives every day, sharing their faith. Pray for my friend from high school and for my personal request. Please pray for me to keep building stronger trust and deeper patience. to learn to wait in peace. Let God put all the blocks in place first.
I do have a special request for prayers. For my sweet family. So many changes have taken place in the last few years and more may be coming. Please pray that we all listen quietly for God's direction. Pray for discernment for all for the paths to take.
I bought my ticket for Beth Moore today. She is coming to Lubbock in July. I bought early bird tickets. My sister in law is going to go with me. I can't wait. I saw her when she was in Lubbock last and was so touched by her words and deep commitment. I am excited to hear her for two days.