Nolan Bontke's Journal
Written 12 hours ago
A day with Izzy is always interesting. She is always into something new. Today it was "who said that" everytime I would say something. So of course, I would say I did and she would come back with "who said that". I finally caught onto the game and would answer with weird names when she asked "who said that".
She can come up with the weirdest silliest games. It is never boring. We colored and bounced my exercise ball and other assorted activities. We had to wait to go to Lubbock cause Josh and Kara were having their home shown. We did not want to get there and walk in on a home showing. We timed it pretty good. Izzy slept all the way there so we just sat and she napped a little longer at the house. Kara got there shortly after we did. Good timing. She finally woke up and had to go with me to run an errand. She was full of opinions.
We were back in Lubbock for Mimi's birthday party. I am pretty sure she would have been upset if Izzy had not been there. Izzy and Kaden are her only two grands. She had no clue that there was a party being planned. She thought she was having supper with Josh and Kara. Kara and her dad had invited all her friends and family. It was a nice evening.
I was late getting home. Just thinking about the time change has made me really tired. I hope to wake up in time for church. I need to get back in the habit of going rather than listening here at home. However, I really enjoy the ability to talk back to the preacher. I can add in my two cents and not bother anyone else. LOL
Thank you for the prayers for L and her family. They have shown such strong faith and strength but it gets harder as time goes on. You get so tired. Pray for her to gain strength and build blood cells. Casey's dad is doing well. He is home and feeling better. Please keep praying for my friends who are facing challenges with their parents or other loved ones. Our friend who has been having regular checkups for cancer in Houston got a good report again. God has been watching over their family. Please pray that I will know the path God has set for me. Pray that soon the answers and solutions will present themselves. Pray for the perfect family to buy Josh's house and for them to find a wonderful new home.
Written Mar 7, 2014 9:32pm
My poor little Gizmo is pooped. He spent a little of the morning with wild Maddie while Izzy and I went to Kaden's Texas program. Then he got a short nap on the way home, got to play with a sweet friend's dog, came home and had to investigate every little thing and never really got his naps in. Plus he got a bath. He is snuggled up beside me, out of it. But he is so clean and soft.
Izzy and Kaden and I had our donuts this morning. They love it when we go for donuts. We have to eat pretty fast so that we can get Kaden to school on time. It is just the highlight of the week. Such a simple thing to mean so much.
Kaden had his Texas program. Pete Laney and Nelda were there. Their grandkids attend the school. Nelda spoke and told the kids all about the Capital building. How many windows, doors and rooms were in there. She did a good job. The kids sang several songs and one of the dads played his fiddle. It was a nice program.
Izzy and I stopped to get a shower gift and found out one of my favorite people of all was in town. We stopped and saw her and her sweet kids for a while. Izzy had a good time playing. Gizmo was not too sure about their dog. He gets kind of scared easily because all of the big dogs he knows are not nice to him. they sort of made friends. It was so nice out that we left the back door open and Izzy played out on the deck. Gizmo came in and out as he wanted. It was a nice afternoon. We even decided to clean the camper. I got the bedroom and bath and part of the kitchen cleaned. My helpers got bored of being in the camper. I can finish another day. We just had a nice afternoon. Izzy took her bath and then we decided Gizmo needed one. He is so pretty and white now, and so soft. He is worn out though. A lot going .on today
Izzy is sleeping on the blow up bed, or Kaden's bed as she calls it. Playa is on it with her. Pretty cute to see them all snuggled up. Gizmo is snuggled with me. Poor Max has to sleep all alone. but he is such a grump, he probably likes that. We don't have to do anything in the morning but tomorrow afternoon we have to go back to Lubbock. Izzy's Mimi is having a birthday dinner. I am pretty sure she will want Izzy there.
Last night Plainview had a fund raiser for L and her family. A bbq and silent auction. I hear it was quite a success. What a sweet thing to do. I know that L and all of her family are so grateful for good friends. Please keep praying for her. For a few more strong days so that they can get the trach in and spare her vocal cords any damage. Nolan's voice was different after all the tubes and the trach. L sings in our church choir so we want to keep her vocals intact. Casey's dad had a pacemaker put in today. He is doing well but prayers are appreciated. Please pray for the right family to buy Josh's house and for them to find the perfect new home. Pray for God's plan for me and my house to be completed. Whatever He has in mind will be perfect. Exactly what I need.
I seem to be on a very busy streak right now. I kind of am ready to slow down, but not for a couple of weeks. Next week is Spring Break for Jack and Hagen so I am going to go hang out with them and do a few things. the week after is Kaden's Spring Break. He may come hang out with me here for a few days. Between the kids and PT, I seem to be on the move a lot, maybe too much. I need to just stay home and paint. Finish the little cabinet I got in and the bench for Relay for Life. The Vanity just needs to have something at the top of the mirror. I need to go to Hobby Lobby and see if I can find something. Then it can go home. So glad my customers are not in a hurry for their pieces.
Everyone but me is asleep. Nice and quiet. I am not sure how Izzy and Playa are going to make it all night on the little blow up bed. I wonder who will win and stay on the bed.
I am still trying to get past my pity party. It is hard to look around and watch the world keep going while my world has stopped. Hard to get past that but I am working on it. I know that Nolan is happier than I can even imagine and would not want me to stay sad. One day I know I will be past this but not for a while. My dr told me on Wed that she felt it took her a year and almost a year and a half to get past the sad feeling that was just there. She experienced a loss and was very sweet in sharing with me. She said it just was a feeling that was always there and then slowly was less and less. Just try not to push it away and let it resolve itself. Good advice I think. she is a great dr.
We delivered the lift chair last night. My friend's husband has been in the hospital, a rehab and now a nursing home since Jan 1. The drs are not sure what is going on with him. Please pray that they find an answer soon so they know how to help him.
Written Mar 5, 2014 9:44pm
Kind of a down day today. Just not feeling too up. I did not get the chair loaded last night or this morning. I finally loaded it this afternoon. Will deliver it tomorrow. I had to go to a dr appointment for just a yearly check up. Just routine. No surprises. She was verry sweet though. Always stays and really talks with me. She rememberred our talk from last year about Nolan's accident. She was so kind when she heard of his passing. Very compassionate. I guess that is why I go to her.
I came home after that. Stopped to pay for my flood insurance before we get flooded but he was not in. I will take care of that Friday. Hope we don't get a flood before then.
Poor Gizmo was so mad at me. He did not like to stay in his kennel while I was gone. I think all he does is sleep until he hears me come in the house and then he starts crying. Usually I take him outside as soon as I let him out, but he has to be held and loved on first. He won't do anything outside until he gets loved on first. Guess he is making sure I am really back or letting me know he missed me. He had a lot to say after that. Probably cursing me out for leaving him.!!!!! LOL
I was not too productive today. Just not into it. The only thing I accomplished was getting the recliner into the back of Josh's pick up. Not an easy task but I did it. Now I just hope it will not blow out tomorrow. I put some tie downs around it so I hope I got enough. I was afraid it might blow. I guess I will find out. I plan to leave early so I can drive slower. Please say a prayer that I make it to Lubbock with the chair intact.
Keep the prayers coming for L. My friend's husband had his surgery and it went well. He will start rehab in a few days. Please pray for them. Strength, healing and comfort. Several friends are deal with health issues with their parents. Please include them in your prayers. Remember my cousin as he continues his life without his sweet wife. And my other personal request. Please keep praying for a possible sale of the house and land and Josh's house. Lots of intricate details to be worked out. Please pray for a simple solution. One that is best for all.
Just when you think you are on a pathway, sometimes you find a huge boulder sitting in the middle, blocking the way. What do you do? You can't go over the boulder or move it. Sometimes you can go around it, but often you must go back and start over down a different path. It is frustrating. I would love to just go down a smooth path for a change. Please pray for God to reveal the right path and to provide the answers and resolutions that I have been waiting for. It feels like I have been waiting for years....oh wait, I have. WAiting and waiting and waiting some more. I know that one day God will present an end to the waiting. One day. I sure wish it would be soon and life could just be smooth for a change.
Kind of had a pity party tonight. I think I was due one. Things just build up and then have to come out sometime. It only takes one more straw to topple everything and cause more confusion. Am I so wrong to pray for a smooth, easy road for a while? For simple solutions? For a simple life?