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Cindy Williams
Janet, I have gotten so much inspiration from your journal. Over these years I have come to hope I would be the kind of loving, compassionate, giving wife and mother you have been! What a lovely soul! You will never know how many lives you have touched. Thank you for sharing your journey! Although we know each other only vaguely, I want you to know I have enjoyed being your prayer partner through these years and appreciate the prayers you have offered as well on our Facebook prayer page.
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I am so glad that you are going to compile your Caring Bridge book.  It will be cathartic for you as you read through it from time to time. I hope you will discover how you have grown as a person, wife and Christian through this life-changing event.  As time marches on, you will also see how far you have come in your journey.  I think you will be amazed at the words of wisdom you have shared, and the strength you have given to those who have followed your posts.  I hope you will see the inspiration, hope, sadness, frustration, love, desperation and faith you have shared with your readers. Another words-you have shared "life" through the eyes of a loving Christian wife.  I know I speak for many when I say  thank you, Janet, thank you.  Closing your Caring Bridge page is another positive step in healing.  Praying that you will continue to be surrounded and comforted with love and prayers from your readers.  It has been a privilege meeting new friends through this site.  It has been amazing to read and feel the love and wisdom posted by so many.  Janet, look at the number of visits as of now....92,566.  I cannot even fathom how many prayers have been prayed, how many tears have fallen, how many smiles you have brought,  and how many friends (people you know and do not know) you have inspired through these 92,566 visits.  I, for one, thank you and have been honored to share in the journey of Janet and her amazing husband , Nolan.  I love you and pray that a plan for your new life will be revealed.  But, more than anything I pray for true happiness for a most deserving wife and friend....Janet Bontke

Remembering your Nolan always~
Love and prayers forever,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt

I'm here and accounted for. 
Janet,  I would do whatever you think is more healing for you.  If you need this site, you should continue writing.  If it is becoming more of a chore of  "I need to post in the journal before I go to bed" then I would stop.

It is up to YOU.  We all want what is best for you.  You will know when it is time.  Another step.....
Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie

stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I'm sorry but i could not help but laugh at the flying dove story.  That would have made a really fun cartoon.  Poor traumatized Gizmo and Poor traumatized bird.  Glad everthing ended well.
So sorry for those involved in the tragic car wreck.  Thinking of many who are hurting .

We sure did enjoy the short rain.  It smelled so good. 
Hope you have a good week.
Remembering your Nolan~  
Love and prayers,
stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I've thought about you all day. I knew you would be reliving the day minute by minute. I don't understand why all the details endure when sometimes we can't remember a phone number, but they do. I'm glad you shared your thoughts with us ... That is healing for you if you can believe that. But, it is. You have to walk it and talk it and talk it and walk it over and over and over. Somehow it is part of the healing process. The "chill to the bone" is what I felt while reading your post. The raw chill, fear and helplessness that lingered day after day. Then, your Nolan not only woke up after days and days, but he accomplished more than any Dr, ICU nurse, RT, or PT could ever imagine. And, he accomplished these things due to his love for his adoring wife and family. YOU, dear Janet, were his inspiration to live and his motivation to give it the ole Bontke try. Your faith was spread hither and yon to friends, relatives and complete strangers. I've always been told to look for the good in anything bad. Janet, you gave Nolan and us the "good.". Now it is time for Janet to mend ,restore and rejuvenate in her own time and place. The road is long and you have many miles to go down the grief path, but if you can, turn around ever once in awhile and see the progress you have made. Even if it is just a couple of baby steps in your mind, those count and will turn into bigger steps that will turn in to full fledge sprints. One day, one day you will be back in the race of life. I promise. Will there be set- backs? YESMAM! You better believe it. You will heal, but the scar will remain. You will never -ever forget even the smallest of details...the happy ones and the bad ones. These anniversary dates will hover like a big ole cloud even without realizing it is an anniversary date. The cloud will follow you until you finally give in to it, and then you will pick yourself up and move forward again. But, the next time you won't pull yourself up hanging on to something with all of your might. Each time you will be stronger and stronger to where you can JUMP up and get back on the horse faster and faster. In fact, you probably don't want to forget, because you want to remember Nolan whether it be good, bad, happy or sad. Those memories are all important, because they are about Nolan and Nolan is about you.
As you can see,I am NOT an accomplished writer. I do not hold a candle to you or many others on this page, but maybe you can twist my weird ways of thinking into something that makes a wee bit of sense. After all. David truly believes that me and a lot of my family are from Planet Bizarrio. And I hate to say it, but a lot of my friends think so, too.
You keep on keeping on, Janet.
Again, I'm so sorry about Max.
I say we honor 2 very, very special fellas tonight and remember those who are hurting.

Love ya, dear one

Remembering your Nolan & your Max & my Troy-Boy,
Love and prayers,
Stephanie
Kay Stambaugh
Kay Stambaugh
This is my third time to try and post. I'm not liking this change. 

I am so sorry for this hard day. You and Steph have been in my thoughts. A day that forever changed your lives. 

I am am glad Max is no longer in pain, but I'm so sorry for your loss. Those four legged friends just worm their way into our hearts and homes and truly become family. Poor Playa. 

I'm remembering two very special men tonight...Nolan and Troy. Two amazing fighters who never gave in or gave up...they gave it their all. Wonder if they've met up in heaven yet?

keep the faith,
kay

Karen Sandlin
Karen

Today is a day that will be vivid in your memory the rest of your life. I could not let this day pass without telling you that I care about you.

God's peace be with you, Janet, as you build your new life. Hallelujah and Praise to our Risen Lord for helping Nolan build his new life!

Have a blessed resurrection weekend.

Much love -

stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I am so, so sorry about Max. What a beautiful 4- footed friend he has bee to you and your family I know your heart is hurting tonight. I am thinking about you tomorrow as the 5 th anniversary of the accident rolls around. This has just been a rough ole week.
I can just picture Nolan meeting Max at the Rainbow Bridge. Don't you know Max was excited to see him?

I hope Playa is doing ok tonight.
Try to rest with visions of a happy, healthy Max fetching balls and running on beautiful green grass.

Love you...
Remembering your Nolan and your Max~
Love and prayers,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I saw the video of Izzy on the tractor today. is plain to see the child has no fear.  All of your Grands love spending time with you at the house.  But, if you move they will love spending time with you where you are. 
Hard to believe we are in for another cold front.  A good day to clean out more closets.  

I am still enjoying the wonderful Relay for Life fudge.  It just melts in your mouth.

Praying for all those on your list and many more who are close to my heart. 
Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Ok the site just started a acting possessed. Kind of scary what all it was doing on my previous post, so I just got out of it as quick as I could.

I sure hope you will get some relief for that hip. It is not fun to hurt with every step you take.

It sure was a pretty day. I continued working on my daunting project. Eee-gads.
Praying for a sweet family as they say their good byes tomorrow and many more folks who have needs. .

Remembering your Nolan~
love and prayers,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I think we need to hang out with Gizmo. He seems to be the social butterfly.  I'm glad you get to be with your family and spend time with your mom, the birthday girl. Tell her Happy Birthday for me. 

Im glad you got a good report from the derm even though he did give you freezer burn. Ouch!  
I k
 O
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
The dream you had was bittersweet. I'm sure you would have loved to have slept forever and kept on dreaming and dreaming about your Nolan. Dreaming is nature's way of helping you remember Nolan when he was the picture of health and happy go lucky. They help you recover some of the happy times that you crave to remember. I know you shared happy times together after the accident, but you are able to remember those times. Hopefully, sweet dreams like this one will help bring you some smiles and some comfort to know you CAN remember his voice, laughter and orneriness before the hospital days.

I wish there was a fast forward button you could push to get past the hard part of grieving. Unfortunately, the only way to heal is to go through it. That reminds me of that silly little story we use to tell the kids about the BEAR HUNT. "You can't go over it....You can't go under it....You can't go around it....You have to go through it." I guess that is how grief is, too. And you have to go through it in your own way and time. I promise those numb feelings will come back alive and the hole in your tummy will begin to close and there will be a little glimmer of light at the end of the long, lonely dark tunnel. I promise, and I don't break promises. You will always have your moments of missing Nolan and the scar will always be there, but it will not be all consuming like it is now.

Praying for those who are hurting tonight and those who are dealing with losses. Remembering those on your list and those close to my heart. I just know the perfect family will find their way to buy your home. Once they walk in it, they won't help but feel the love and laughter that has been in your home.

Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie
PS>>>That is some mighty fine fudge. Of coarse, I have already dug into it. YUMMMMMM!
Cindy Williams
Janet, I have gotten so much inspiration from your journal. Over these years I have come to hope I would be the kind of loving, compassionate, giving wife and mother you have been! What a lovely soul! You will never know how many lives you have touched. Thank you for sharing your journey! Although we know each other only vaguely, I want you to know I have enjoyed being your prayer partner through these years and appreciate the prayers you have offered as well on our Facebook prayer page.
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I am so glad that you are going to compile your Caring Bridge book.  It will be cathartic for you as you read through it from time to time. I hope you will discover how you have grown as a person, wife and Christian through this life-changing event.  As time marches on, you will also see how far you have come in your journey.  I think you will be amazed at the words of wisdom you have shared, and the strength you have given to those who have followed your posts.  I hope you will see the inspiration, hope, sadness, frustration, love, desperation and faith you have shared with your readers. Another words-you have shared "life" through the eyes of a loving Christian wife.  I know I speak for many when I say  thank you, Janet, thank you.  Closing your Caring Bridge page is another positive step in healing.  Praying that you will continue to be surrounded and comforted with love and prayers from your readers.  It has been a privilege meeting new friends through this site.  It has been amazing to read and feel the love and wisdom posted by so many.  Janet, look at the number of visits as of now....92,566.  I cannot even fathom how many prayers have been prayed, how many tears have fallen, how many smiles you have brought,  and how many friends (people you know and do not know) you have inspired through these 92,566 visits.  I, for one, thank you and have been honored to share in the journey of Janet and her amazing husband , Nolan.  I love you and pray that a plan for your new life will be revealed.  But, more than anything I pray for true happiness for a most deserving wife and friend....Janet Bontke

Remembering your Nolan always~
Love and prayers forever,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt

I'm here and accounted for. 
Janet,  I would do whatever you think is more healing for you.  If you need this site, you should continue writing.  If it is becoming more of a chore of  "I need to post in the journal before I go to bed" then I would stop.

It is up to YOU.  We all want what is best for you.  You will know when it is time.  Another step.....
Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie

Kay Stambaugh
Kay Stambaugh
This is my third time to try and post. I'm not liking this change. 

I am so sorry for this hard day. You and Steph have been in my thoughts. A day that forever changed your lives. 

I am am glad Max is no longer in pain, but I'm so sorry for your loss. Those four legged friends just worm their way into our hearts and homes and truly become family. Poor Playa. 

I'm remembering two very special men tonight...Nolan and Troy. Two amazing fighters who never gave in or gave up...they gave it their all. Wonder if they've met up in heaven yet?

keep the faith,
kay

stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I am so, so sorry about Max. What a beautiful 4- footed friend he has bee to you and your family I know your heart is hurting tonight. I am thinking about you tomorrow as the 5 th anniversary of the accident rolls around. This has just been a rough ole week.
I can just picture Nolan meeting Max at the Rainbow Bridge. Don't you know Max was excited to see him?

I hope Playa is doing ok tonight.
Try to rest with visions of a happy, healthy Max fetching balls and running on beautiful green grass.

Love you...
Remembering your Nolan and your Max~
Love and prayers,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I saw the video of Izzy on the tractor today. is plain to see the child has no fear.  All of your Grands love spending time with you at the house.  But, if you move they will love spending time with you where you are. 
Hard to believe we are in for another cold front.  A good day to clean out more closets.  

I am still enjoying the wonderful Relay for Life fudge.  It just melts in your mouth.

Praying for all those on your list and many more who are close to my heart. 
Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I think we need to hang out with Gizmo. He seems to be the social butterfly.  I'm glad you get to be with your family and spend time with your mom, the birthday girl. Tell her Happy Birthday for me. 

Im glad you got a good report from the derm even though he did give you freezer burn. Ouch!  
I k
 O
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I'm sorry but i could not help but laugh at the flying dove story.  That would have made a really fun cartoon.  Poor traumatized Gizmo and Poor traumatized bird.  Glad everthing ended well.
So sorry for those involved in the tragic car wreck.  Thinking of many who are hurting .

We sure did enjoy the short rain.  It smelled so good. 
Hope you have a good week.
Remembering your Nolan~  
Love and prayers,
stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I've thought about you all day. I knew you would be reliving the day minute by minute. I don't understand why all the details endure when sometimes we can't remember a phone number, but they do. I'm glad you shared your thoughts with us ... That is healing for you if you can believe that. But, it is. You have to walk it and talk it and talk it and walk it over and over and over. Somehow it is part of the healing process. The "chill to the bone" is what I felt while reading your post. The raw chill, fear and helplessness that lingered day after day. Then, your Nolan not only woke up after days and days, but he accomplished more than any Dr, ICU nurse, RT, or PT could ever imagine. And, he accomplished these things due to his love for his adoring wife and family. YOU, dear Janet, were his inspiration to live and his motivation to give it the ole Bontke try. Your faith was spread hither and yon to friends, relatives and complete strangers. I've always been told to look for the good in anything bad. Janet, you gave Nolan and us the "good.". Now it is time for Janet to mend ,restore and rejuvenate in her own time and place. The road is long and you have many miles to go down the grief path, but if you can, turn around ever once in awhile and see the progress you have made. Even if it is just a couple of baby steps in your mind, those count and will turn into bigger steps that will turn in to full fledge sprints. One day, one day you will be back in the race of life. I promise. Will there be set- backs? YESMAM! You better believe it. You will heal, but the scar will remain. You will never -ever forget even the smallest of details...the happy ones and the bad ones. These anniversary dates will hover like a big ole cloud even without realizing it is an anniversary date. The cloud will follow you until you finally give in to it, and then you will pick yourself up and move forward again. But, the next time you won't pull yourself up hanging on to something with all of your might. Each time you will be stronger and stronger to where you can JUMP up and get back on the horse faster and faster. In fact, you probably don't want to forget, because you want to remember Nolan whether it be good, bad, happy or sad. Those memories are all important, because they are about Nolan and Nolan is about you.
As you can see,I am NOT an accomplished writer. I do not hold a candle to you or many others on this page, but maybe you can twist my weird ways of thinking into something that makes a wee bit of sense. After all. David truly believes that me and a lot of my family are from Planet Bizarrio. And I hate to say it, but a lot of my friends think so, too.
You keep on keeping on, Janet.
Again, I'm so sorry about Max.
I say we honor 2 very, very special fellas tonight and remember those who are hurting.

Love ya, dear one

Remembering your Nolan & your Max & my Troy-Boy,
Love and prayers,
Stephanie
Karen Sandlin
Karen

Today is a day that will be vivid in your memory the rest of your life. I could not let this day pass without telling you that I care about you.

God's peace be with you, Janet, as you build your new life. Hallelujah and Praise to our Risen Lord for helping Nolan build his new life!

Have a blessed resurrection weekend.

Much love -

stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Ok the site just started a acting possessed. Kind of scary what all it was doing on my previous post, so I just got out of it as quick as I could.

I sure hope you will get some relief for that hip. It is not fun to hurt with every step you take.

It sure was a pretty day. I continued working on my daunting project. Eee-gads.
Praying for a sweet family as they say their good byes tomorrow and many more folks who have needs. .

Remembering your Nolan~
love and prayers,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
The dream you had was bittersweet. I'm sure you would have loved to have slept forever and kept on dreaming and dreaming about your Nolan. Dreaming is nature's way of helping you remember Nolan when he was the picture of health and happy go lucky. They help you recover some of the happy times that you crave to remember. I know you shared happy times together after the accident, but you are able to remember those times. Hopefully, sweet dreams like this one will help bring you some smiles and some comfort to know you CAN remember his voice, laughter and orneriness before the hospital days.

I wish there was a fast forward button you could push to get past the hard part of grieving. Unfortunately, the only way to heal is to go through it. That reminds me of that silly little story we use to tell the kids about the BEAR HUNT. "You can't go over it....You can't go under it....You can't go around it....You have to go through it." I guess that is how grief is, too. And you have to go through it in your own way and time. I promise those numb feelings will come back alive and the hole in your tummy will begin to close and there will be a little glimmer of light at the end of the long, lonely dark tunnel. I promise, and I don't break promises. You will always have your moments of missing Nolan and the scar will always be there, but it will not be all consuming like it is now.

Praying for those who are hurting tonight and those who are dealing with losses. Remembering those on your list and those close to my heart. I just know the perfect family will find their way to buy your home. Once they walk in it, they won't help but feel the love and laughter that has been in your home.

Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie
PS>>>That is some mighty fine fudge. Of coarse, I have already dug into it. YUMMMMMM!
Cindy Williams
Janet, I have gotten so much inspiration from your journal. Over these years I have come to hope I would be the kind of loving, compassionate, giving wife and mother you have been! What a lovely soul! You will never know how many lives you have touched. Thank you for sharing your journey! Although we know each other only vaguely, I want you to know I have enjoyed being your prayer partner through these years and appreciate the prayers you have offered as well on our Facebook prayer page.
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt

I'm here and accounted for. 
Janet,  I would do whatever you think is more healing for you.  If you need this site, you should continue writing.  If it is becoming more of a chore of  "I need to post in the journal before I go to bed" then I would stop.

It is up to YOU.  We all want what is best for you.  You will know when it is time.  Another step.....
Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie

stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I've thought about you all day. I knew you would be reliving the day minute by minute. I don't understand why all the details endure when sometimes we can't remember a phone number, but they do. I'm glad you shared your thoughts with us ... That is healing for you if you can believe that. But, it is. You have to walk it and talk it and talk it and walk it over and over and over. Somehow it is part of the healing process. The "chill to the bone" is what I felt while reading your post. The raw chill, fear and helplessness that lingered day after day. Then, your Nolan not only woke up after days and days, but he accomplished more than any Dr, ICU nurse, RT, or PT could ever imagine. And, he accomplished these things due to his love for his adoring wife and family. YOU, dear Janet, were his inspiration to live and his motivation to give it the ole Bontke try. Your faith was spread hither and yon to friends, relatives and complete strangers. I've always been told to look for the good in anything bad. Janet, you gave Nolan and us the "good.". Now it is time for Janet to mend ,restore and rejuvenate in her own time and place. The road is long and you have many miles to go down the grief path, but if you can, turn around ever once in awhile and see the progress you have made. Even if it is just a couple of baby steps in your mind, those count and will turn into bigger steps that will turn in to full fledge sprints. One day, one day you will be back in the race of life. I promise. Will there be set- backs? YESMAM! You better believe it. You will heal, but the scar will remain. You will never -ever forget even the smallest of details...the happy ones and the bad ones. These anniversary dates will hover like a big ole cloud even without realizing it is an anniversary date. The cloud will follow you until you finally give in to it, and then you will pick yourself up and move forward again. But, the next time you won't pull yourself up hanging on to something with all of your might. Each time you will be stronger and stronger to where you can JUMP up and get back on the horse faster and faster. In fact, you probably don't want to forget, because you want to remember Nolan whether it be good, bad, happy or sad. Those memories are all important, because they are about Nolan and Nolan is about you.
As you can see,I am NOT an accomplished writer. I do not hold a candle to you or many others on this page, but maybe you can twist my weird ways of thinking into something that makes a wee bit of sense. After all. David truly believes that me and a lot of my family are from Planet Bizarrio. And I hate to say it, but a lot of my friends think so, too.
You keep on keeping on, Janet.
Again, I'm so sorry about Max.
I say we honor 2 very, very special fellas tonight and remember those who are hurting.

Love ya, dear one

Remembering your Nolan & your Max & my Troy-Boy,
Love and prayers,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I am so, so sorry about Max. What a beautiful 4- footed friend he has bee to you and your family I know your heart is hurting tonight. I am thinking about you tomorrow as the 5 th anniversary of the accident rolls around. This has just been a rough ole week.
I can just picture Nolan meeting Max at the Rainbow Bridge. Don't you know Max was excited to see him?

I hope Playa is doing ok tonight.
Try to rest with visions of a happy, healthy Max fetching balls and running on beautiful green grass.

Love you...
Remembering your Nolan and your Max~
Love and prayers,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Ok the site just started a acting possessed. Kind of scary what all it was doing on my previous post, so I just got out of it as quick as I could.

I sure hope you will get some relief for that hip. It is not fun to hurt with every step you take.

It sure was a pretty day. I continued working on my daunting project. Eee-gads.
Praying for a sweet family as they say their good byes tomorrow and many more folks who have needs. .

Remembering your Nolan~
love and prayers,
Stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I'm sorry but i could not help but laugh at the flying dove story.  That would have made a really fun cartoon.  Poor traumatized Gizmo and Poor traumatized bird.  Glad everthing ended well.
So sorry for those involved in the tragic car wreck.  Thinking of many who are hurting .

We sure did enjoy the short rain.  It smelled so good. 
Hope you have a good week.
Remembering your Nolan~  
Love and prayers,
stephanie
Kay Stambaugh
Kay Stambaugh
This is my third time to try and post. I'm not liking this change. 

I am so sorry for this hard day. You and Steph have been in my thoughts. A day that forever changed your lives. 

I am am glad Max is no longer in pain, but I'm so sorry for your loss. Those four legged friends just worm their way into our hearts and homes and truly become family. Poor Playa. 

I'm remembering two very special men tonight...Nolan and Troy. Two amazing fighters who never gave in or gave up...they gave it their all. Wonder if they've met up in heaven yet?

keep the faith,
kay

stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I think we need to hang out with Gizmo. He seems to be the social butterfly.  I'm glad you get to be with your family and spend time with your mom, the birthday girl. Tell her Happy Birthday for me. 

Im glad you got a good report from the derm even though he did give you freezer burn. Ouch!  
I k
 O
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
Janet, I am so glad that you are going to compile your Caring Bridge book.  It will be cathartic for you as you read through it from time to time. I hope you will discover how you have grown as a person, wife and Christian through this life-changing event.  As time marches on, you will also see how far you have come in your journey.  I think you will be amazed at the words of wisdom you have shared, and the strength you have given to those who have followed your posts.  I hope you will see the inspiration, hope, sadness, frustration, love, desperation and faith you have shared with your readers. Another words-you have shared "life" through the eyes of a loving Christian wife.  I know I speak for many when I say  thank you, Janet, thank you.  Closing your Caring Bridge page is another positive step in healing.  Praying that you will continue to be surrounded and comforted with love and prayers from your readers.  It has been a privilege meeting new friends through this site.  It has been amazing to read and feel the love and wisdom posted by so many.  Janet, look at the number of visits as of now....92,566.  I cannot even fathom how many prayers have been prayed, how many tears have fallen, how many smiles you have brought,  and how many friends (people you know and do not know) you have inspired through these 92,566 visits.  I, for one, thank you and have been honored to share in the journey of Janet and her amazing husband , Nolan.  I love you and pray that a plan for your new life will be revealed.  But, more than anything I pray for true happiness for a most deserving wife and friend....Janet Bontke

Remembering your Nolan always~
Love and prayers forever,
Stephanie
Karen Sandlin
Karen

Today is a day that will be vivid in your memory the rest of your life. I could not let this day pass without telling you that I care about you.

God's peace be with you, Janet, as you build your new life. Hallelujah and Praise to our Risen Lord for helping Nolan build his new life!

Have a blessed resurrection weekend.

Much love -

stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
I saw the video of Izzy on the tractor today. is plain to see the child has no fear.  All of your Grands love spending time with you at the house.  But, if you move they will love spending time with you where you are. 
Hard to believe we are in for another cold front.  A good day to clean out more closets.  

I am still enjoying the wonderful Relay for Life fudge.  It just melts in your mouth.

Praying for all those on your list and many more who are close to my heart. 
Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie
stephanie t-sweatt
stephanie t-sweatt
The dream you had was bittersweet. I'm sure you would have loved to have slept forever and kept on dreaming and dreaming about your Nolan. Dreaming is nature's way of helping you remember Nolan when he was the picture of health and happy go lucky. They help you recover some of the happy times that you crave to remember. I know you shared happy times together after the accident, but you are able to remember those times. Hopefully, sweet dreams like this one will help bring you some smiles and some comfort to know you CAN remember his voice, laughter and orneriness before the hospital days.

I wish there was a fast forward button you could push to get past the hard part of grieving. Unfortunately, the only way to heal is to go through it. That reminds me of that silly little story we use to tell the kids about the BEAR HUNT. "You can't go over it....You can't go under it....You can't go around it....You have to go through it." I guess that is how grief is, too. And you have to go through it in your own way and time. I promise those numb feelings will come back alive and the hole in your tummy will begin to close and there will be a little glimmer of light at the end of the long, lonely dark tunnel. I promise, and I don't break promises. You will always have your moments of missing Nolan and the scar will always be there, but it will not be all consuming like it is now.

Praying for those who are hurting tonight and those who are dealing with losses. Remembering those on your list and those close to my heart. I just know the perfect family will find their way to buy your home. Once they walk in it, they won't help but feel the love and laughter that has been in your home.

Remembering your Nolan~
Love and prayers,
stephanie
PS>>>That is some mighty fine fudge. Of coarse, I have already dug into it. YUMMMMMM!