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  • I'm pregnant!!

    Written May 7, 2011 3:37pm

    Hi everybody,
    Sorry it's been so long since I've updated this journal.  I am doing great - very healthy and I'm excited to share good news with you -- Jason and I are expecting!!

    There was always some doubt about whether we would be able to conceive naturally given the chemotherapy and radiation. However, after a month of trying, Jason and I were able to conceive, which is a miracle!!

    The pregnancy is going along smoothly.  I'm sixteen weeks and things are going very well. I feel healthy, happy and grateful for my health.  We are not going to find out if it is going to be a boy or a girl - we're going to keep it a surprise.

    I'm due on October 19th, and we can't wait!  Jason and I are both working very hard to get the house ready for our new bundle of joy.

    I just want to thank everyone who's followed my progress over the years for being a source of strength and inspiration. 

    Thanks for being such a special part of my life. 

    Love,
    Melissa :)
  • Written Feb 6, 2010 12:45pm

    Good news!  It was a good scan! Yay!!  
    I talked to my Doctor and he confirmed that I am still cancer-free. Hooray!   Of course those PET scan reports are always written in a way that is so scary and confusing. 

    It says, "There are multiple small mediastinal lymph nodes that are stable. These are not hypermetabolic."

    ... which the doctor tells me means that I still have some remnants left but they are not cancerous and they are not growing.  So that's good!   Jeez, could they make these PET scans any more scary if they tried?   You'd think they are trying to freak me out just by the way they talk about things. 

    Anyhow, this is good news and I need to remember that.  The doctor is optimistic.

    I had a nightmare last night that I took a test from my 7th grade Civics teacher and I got a "C-" on my exam - devastating grade for me. I was pretty upset about the grade I got in my dream.  I'm not sure how that dream relates to me going through PET scan test anxiety, but I thought it was ironic.  I guess I am disappointed in myself that my scan is not totally perfect.  Of course, how could anything ever be totally perfect? 

    Thanks everyone for thinking of me and sending me warm wishes.  It means a lot to me to know I have such an incredible support team.  

    Love,
    Melissa :)  
  • Written Feb 4, 2010 7:34am

    Good morning everyone!

    I feel so much better today. I had my scan yesterday. I have no idea what the results will be.  I have to wait for a radiologist to look at my scan and write a report. Then they'll send the report to my doctor and my doctor will call me.

    For some reason I'm less nervous now that my part is over with.  I hope to hear from my doctor soon.  I'll let you know when he calls.  Pray for the best!

    P.S. that is a picture of me sleeping in the "waiting chair" while the radioactive die circulates through my system.  They inject you with a nuclear die and then make you wait a few hours for it to circulate through your body. The die is sugar.  Cells that divide quickly eat sugar.  Often quickly-dividing cells are cancer.  Then they take a picture of me with a giant Geiger counter camera and look for the glowing die. My hope is that there is no "pick-up"   You can see more pictures in my photo gallery. 

    Love,
    Melissa

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