It's been awhile since I've updated. So long in fact that I've had friends reach out to ask what's going on. Well, not a lot has happened in the past few months. Joe and I went back to work, Matthew stayed at rehab. TLC is the program, he takes a taxi to get there every day since he leaves after we do for his day to begin. Joe usually picks him up. We haven't been out a lot, we've visited a couple of friends, seen a movie, but mostly we stay home. Days are long, Matthew is pretty lonely with both his siblings gone out of state and his friends in college now. His friends who are still around absolutely amaze me with their perseverance and love. Sundays are hard, for some reason they always seem to be. This past Sunday was no exception, by Monday Matthew still hadn't recovered and begged off of therapy for the day. Tuesday didn't start off as if it were going to be any better but he assured me he would push through and go to therapy. They'd told us if he didn't step up more then they (Casa Colina) wouldn't request any more time for him there. No one knows what we do, they don't see who we see when we look at him or see his pain.
I text Matthew from work Tuesday morning to see how he was doing, if things had improved. His response was,
"Check out this video on YouTube: http://youtu.be/n_aVFVveJNs
Lauren DaigleLetting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at Your feet
Every moment of my wandering
Never changes what You see
I’ve tried to win this war I confess
My hands are weary I need Your rest
Mighty Warrior, King of the fight
No matter what I face, You’re by my side
When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You!
The lyrics express where his heart is, I'm still amazed by him. Still praying, even when I only cry out "why?"