I cant believe its been two years today since I last held, and loved on my precious baby girl Makayla.
I know I said this last year on her 1 year Angel~versary, but I have to say it this year as well, it just doesn’t seem this long, it still seems like yesterday that I was with her. I don’t know when it wont seem like yesterday….maybe when the years continue, but I can tell you what the pain doesn’t ease with “time” maybe for others, but we all grieve differently. She was my baby girl, all I wanted to do was have a sister for Hailey, a beautiful family full of life, and I do have life in my little family with Hailey but its not the same with out Makayla. Yes Hailey was my first born, but Makayla was the blessing for my Hailey…Makayla was to make the dreams of what I never have, given to Hailey and she was also my babygirl.

I cant imagine how beautiful she would look today. How she would be, well….I can but it could no where be near perfect of what she would be today, nor how beautiful she looks in Heaven. I just cant believe how fast times flies. So much has happened since she has left, and now she has her great grandmother (my grandmother), Uncle Ronnie and my Mother (her Grammy) there with her. She isn’t alone and has her family with her….as much as it really blows to know that my mother in laws Son is there with her granddaughter my precious baby girl, and my mother there being the best Grammy to her more then life itself could bring….if I had to make a good side, even for a second before it makes me mad and wish that not any of my family was there…is that she has her family she met here on earth..she isn’t along, yet how quickly that was….makes myself and my family hurt more.

Two years ago, today….my daughter took her last breath and I gave her my last hug and kiss…how horrifying it will always be in my mind, to hold such an innocent daughter in your arms, so small….its not like losing just any child, she was a 5 month old baby~ she still had that precious baby sent, beautiful face, precious lips…little tiny hands that gripped mine before she left…I just can‘t believe she isn’t here….yet the only thing to look at if need be to get some comfort to know she went in peace and into the arms of Jesus.



* Makayla *~

My precious baby, do you know how much I miss you? Silly question coming from someone who knows everything I feel in heaven, but I miss you more then anyone here could ever know. Your daddy loves you and we both have so many times when we watch your sister play…the cute things she does alone…yet we always think…Makayla…what would you be doing right now with her..to annoy her, or love her, to laugh with her and play with her. You are missed more and more greatly everyday that passes by especially as we watch Hailey grow….your in every second of our life of Hailey’s that we cant seem to grasp this really has happened to your mother, daddy and sissy…..

I hope you miss me as much as I miss you, If I could have you in my arms again, oh how I would never let you go, it may be selfish but I wouldn’t let you go for anything…. I know there are no pain or tears in Heaven, I’m so glad you don’t have to feel the pain of separation between me and you, and daddy and Hailey and all your family. We miss you so much its unbearable…at times. I love you sweet heart, and I can’t wait to see you when my time comes. Please give my momma a hug, and tell her how much I love her too, I miss her so much as well. Give Uncle Ronnie our love~and tell him Daddy miss his best friend…

Your whole family misses you greatly as well.

I love you sweet angel of mine~ until we meet again~

Half my Heart is in Heaven~

Love,
Momma (Tisha)



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