I read the article today that came out in Breezy Mama...a year after Maddie. The way you let us actually feel your daily rituals and emotions, how they are intwined in the lovely people and places around you...having to mull through days of utter grief, and because of the love you so deeply have for those that love you, put one shaking foot in front of the other. This was the article, even seeing into the future a year ago, I knew would be the hardest for me to read. It was. I just felt such...sadness, aching. Like a punch in the stomach.
The phone rang at my home, just at the exact time I was reading the line, something to the effect, " It could be worse, I could be in Kajsa's shoes... " It was my son's Audiologist calling me, jumping up and down on the phone to let us know that his new "ears", the new devises we have been waiting for on pins and needles, for months, the ones that will make a monumental change in his hearing, FINALLY arrived!!! I just started to sob uncontrollably. She said, "Oh honey, you're so happy, but why are you crying?" I told her...they were his "Easter gift".
Kajsa, thank you for the gift you have given us