Laura McShane's Journal
Roller coaster of emotions
Written Jul 30, 2012 11:07pmWith it being over a week now with my best friend taking her last breath it has been the most difficult thing I have ever had/have to get through. Not a day goes by that I don't spend the morning and evening crying uncontrollably yelling and screaming why, why couldn't god have picked someone else, not the most amazing person in the world...... I know God has a plan for us and to hold on and keep the faith, but that is being tested more than ever right now.
The kids and I have been spending each day together doing fun stuff, as Dylan puts it, and on a little vacation right now just to get away. It is very hard to see and be around anything and everything that we did together. I know this will get easier, and keeping the faith will only help me get through it. I'd like to thank everyone that has reached out to our families, it is so greatly appreciated more than anyone would ever know.
My only request is to always kiss and hug your spouse good night, they are truly amazing people.
Our journey ends
Written Jul 20, 2012 9:56amI am saddened to say that Laura lost her battle early this morning around midnight......She was with me and some close friends, it was peaceful, and is now away from all of the pain. No more doctors, no more medicine, no more trials and feeling sick, you are up in heaven and looking over our family. The kids know you are up in heaven and looking down on us keeping an eye on them......we love you, you are the strongest person I've ever met, like I told you just this week, I am so lucky to have met you and feel in love........I love you Laura, god bless......
Written Jul 7, 2012 9:07pmWe'd like to thank all of the great visitors that we have had over the last few weeks, it has been great for Laura to see so many people, it has lifted her spirits! We do want to ask one thing from everyone though, can you please contact me before you plan on coming to visit, if you can let me know the day before, or even earlier that would be great. We have a lot of people coming over to spend some time with Laura, and I don't want to over lap the visits. Thank you everyone for understanding, and keep the visits coming!!Laura has been having both good and bad days, she is feeling pretty weak and very tired. We spent a few days at the lake over the 4th this week, some of her hospice workers thought it would be a good idea to get out there while her mobility is still in ok shape. She was like a new person out there, something in the air maybe, but she was full of spunk and even had me get her into the water to spend some time on a floatie, one of her favorite things to do! We spend most of our days here at home resting and spending time with many visitors that stop in to see her. We have her hospice nurse come out twice a week to answer some of my questions, and check her vitals. We also have a great social worker from hospice that acts as our therapists at times, she really helps us open up together to go over the tough subjects.Take care everyone one, and please start to text my cell, or email me if you are trying to communicate with Laura, she is having a hard time keeping up with that. Thanks again everyone for the continued thoughts and prayers, they mean a lot to us!