josh adcock's Journal
Happy New Year!
Written Jan 1, 2014 5:10pmHappy New Year to all our friends and family and to our sweet Josh in heaven. 2013 has been a year of unbelievable heartache. This song is my heart's vision for 2014 and moving forward.
Some posts since our puppet show that I forgot to add on here!!!
Merry Christmas in heaven sweet Josh. So many emotions our hearts have felt today...beautiful memories of Christmas past and the piercing heartache of the reality that you are no longer here to celebrate with us. Visiting you in the cemetery today was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I have tried all day to find words but to only come to one conclusion...this kind of pain is indescribable. But I must share that I truly have felt God working in my heart leading up to today. A few weeks ago, I couldn't think of Christmas without feeling sick, but God has been revealing to me that the things I missed the most about today and had all my focus on, truly wasn't what today was about. Without Christmas...all Hope would be gone for our family. If our Savior had not been born this Christmas Day, then when we stood by your hospital bed and watched you take your last breath here on earth with us, that would have been it. Death would have won and we would have been separated from you forever. Just typing that brings me more pain than I can hardly bare. But because of Christmas...Jesus's birthday...we have marvelous Hope. This pain we feel is only temporary and your pain is no more. So yes, I cried tears of of missing you today, but I also celebrated and thanked God for sending Jesus, to be born of a virgin, the Messiah, Lord of Lord's and King of King's, Emmanuel. Because of Him, I can still live in peace knowing that you are alive and well with Jesus. Without that Hope, death would be unbearable. I am truly thankful for 9/7/2012, the night you prayed with Mr. Will, Daddy and Poppie and asked Jesus to be your Savior, as Daddy, Jake and myself have all done. This gives us blessed assurance that our family will be re-united again in heaven for eternity. I can't imagine living in this pain without that assurance. I must also say that God promised to be our comfort and He has. This isn't easy...He doesn't say life will be easy...but that He will be right beside us always...and He is. So as we prayed today, I prayed you were having your best Christmas ever little man and that Jesus would give you the biggest hug from us and tell you how much we still love you and how very much we miss you. We still bought everyone in the family gifts from you...even tricked Jake...like you always had fun doing. It made him smile!!! I will never forget you taking your $100 you saved up and picking out gifts from your heart for each family member. You had such a big heart and with so much love to give...just like Jesus. So as we opened gifts today, I was reminded of the best gift any of us ever received, what today is truly about, Jesus...The gift that fits every heart perfectly!!!
Christmas Donations to Hospitals
Thanks to each of you who helped in any way with our Christmas fundraiser for hospitalized children and their families. The last couple of weeks have been such a blessing for us. We began our donations with the St.Jude clinic in JC. This was our first visit back to the clinic without our sweet boy and was very emotional. They are not only our friends but our family and we have missed them so much. Hearing them share sweet memories of Josh did so much good for our hearts.
We traveled to Nashville last Friday, the 13th, we had a lot of emotions flowing for sure going back where we we spent our last moments with Josh. We arrived at lunch time to meet with some of the nurses that took care of Josh while we were there, and were tickled to see seven nurses there to eat with us. These nurses are also like family to us and we had such a great time with each of them. As we sat and talked, it became even more clear how special they are to us. We sat and talked and shared story after story.
You simply cannot know how good that was for us to share that time with you all. Words can not explain it. After eating lunch, we went to Vanderbilt and visited nurses and doctors in the PICU that were working and shared stories with them as well about our time living together with them in the hospital.
After loving on the folks in PICU we met with Josh's kidney team that took care of us for so long as well. To the entire staff there, words cannot express our love for you!
We also visited the Niswonger Children's hospital here today and met with our family of folks there too. It was so good to hug your necks and meet new staff that has joined and to learn that they knew so much about Josh from stories from those who cared for him have shared. You all are very special to us as well and we love you all so much.
That leads me to this. We enjoyed hearing these beautifil stories so much. Honestly, it was good therapy for us to know our precious little man is not forgotten. Maybe you had an interaction with Josh, or Jake, at some point or were touched by them to some extent. If that is the case, and you don't mind, please comment to this post and share that with us. We would love to hear those stories.
Terry, Tammy, and Jake
Happy Thanksgiving in heaven little man. We sure do miss you. We started a new tradition this year. We decorated a live Christmas tree in the front yard that a sweet friend planted for us in memory of you. All red of course...your favorite color! We also lit candles for you and Phil at the dinner table. Our lives are forever changed but you are always in our hearts. We love you sweet boy. I hope you enjoyed turkey with ketchup and apple sparkler with Jesus today and that your little tree makes you smile!
P.A.T.T.'s Puppets Show is tomorrow!
Written Nov 15, 2013 9:31pm
Looking forward to the puppet show tomorrow. Hope to see you there!!!
The Phil Foundation invites you to join us for one of the greatest puppet shows you will ever see. P.A.T.T.’s Puppets are an award winning puppet team from Orebank Missionary Baptist Church in Kingsport, TN. The team performs energetic, original shows, including black light, with more than 100 puppets! They share a faith-based message through upbeat music and creative ways and is sure to be fun for the entire family.
- One new stuffed animal per child
(17 and under)
- One trial size toiletry item per adult
(ex. shampoo/razor/soap /toothpaste etc. ) for men and women
That each hospitalized child at Niswonger
Children’s Hospital in JC and Monroe Carrel
Jr Children’s Hospital at Vanderbilt in Nashville
will receive a new stuffed animal, in
memory of Josh, on Christmas day and
their families will receive a caregiver bag
filled with everything they need to stay
overnight in the hospital and more. Please
help us make a sick child and their family
smile on Christmas Day.
Josh loved stuffed animals very much, especially his bunny, and they helped comfort him through many long hospital stays. We know without a doubt he is smiling in heaven knowing hospitalized children will be receiving a stuffed animal in memory of him for Christmas.
Reminder of Puppet Show coming up soon!!!
Written Nov 5, 2013 6:25pmJust a reminder that we are getting closer to the Puppet Show. I attached a copy of the flyer in case you wanted to print it and share it with your family, friends, church, school, etc. Please help us spread the word and come out and enjoy the show on Saturday, November 16, 2:00 pm at Boone Trail Baptist Church. It will be lots of fun for the entire family and for a great cause. We are hoping to make hospitalized kids and their families smile on Christmas.