Happy Resurrection Evening! I hope your day has been a blessing as you worshipped the Savior.  I was reading my 18 year old son's paper tonight that he had written for his college dual enrollment English class. I thought you might get a blessing from it and I will write it out for you with Justin's permission.

"This is about dealing with the loss of my hero: AKA Jordan Robinson. When people ask me, "How are you?" I cannot lie...I'm not ok...People tell me, "Oh the first few holidays will be rough." No, everyday is hard.  I know God is still on the throne and that He knows what He is doing.  That is not the point.  I'm not bitter at God; He's God. He can do whatever He wants...period.  It is just tough.  "God gives and God takes away--Blessed be Your name."

I got to be honest...I cannot focus.  I just miss him beyond belief.  We were closer than anyone could possibly be!  I go and do something cool then I go to call him. I hold a lot inside of me and I know it is not the best thing, but honestly...how can anyone tell me to let something out that I have no idea what to let out.  I am not the kind of person who will 'emotionally vomit' all over you. I guess the way that I deal with it it just beating the mess out of my punching bag or just watching videos of Jordan.  

I wore #20 on my basketball team in honor of Jordan...'cause that was his number.  One of my season games this year-I was just looking around at the little crowd that was there at our game.  Jordan was at every one of my games possible and yelling at me from the bleachers to "take it strong." I have never played 2 minutes of a basketball game with tears coming out before.  I could not see him in the crowd but I could hear him telling me to take it strong. No matter how good or bad I play in a game..I wear that number with pride that no one could ever take away.

The thing is...people can talk about their loved ones at the funeral and talk about how awesome they were and what not but the thing is--Jordan really was THE MAN.  The kid had the heart of a lion.  Literally the niecest kid you would ever meet.  He could crush me with one hand but he would not and I was the best at making him almost use that one hand!

I do not need pity hugs...or quotes that people get off cheesy 'Christian' websites.  Look, sometimes...it is just better not to say anything.  I am just really jealous that Jesus gets to hang out with Jordan and they are probably making a sweet video without me right now! :)  In the most un-cliche' way possible-Jordan will always be with me and I will never forget his love for the Lord. God is teaching me to not be so selfish because I want Jordan here with me. Words are not capable of explaining how much I love and miss Jordan Paul Robinson.  I had the privilege of being his younger brother for 17 years of my life  I'm one blessed dude. God is good.  All the time.