Hello Everyone,

Well, another week down, and I still miss James just as much as ever. Its weird because I know he isn't coming back, but it still feels like he should be. Some days, when the reality of it all hits me, it is more than I can bear even though I know he's gone. Its just so hard to believe that some one can be here one day and just be gone the next. The weather was beautiful this weekend, and it only made me miss him more. I sat down at my kitchen table and cried Saturday after lunch. It was so hard to see how beautiful it was and not have James to share it with. He would have been running around like crazy and not wanting to nap. That's what I thought of. How hard it would have been to get him down for his nap. It's hard. I try not to think of these things, but how can I not? He was my son and my world. My life has revolved around James for the last three years, and the last 18 months all I have done is eat, sleep, and breath James. I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.

I did well on my exam last week. I have finished two of my classes both of which my final grades were A's, so I can't complain about that. I am working on my last class now, and we have started to plan things for James' fundraiser in May. Some of you may remember us having a fundraiser last year for St. Jude's. Well, we are going to have one every year including this one. I wasn't sure if I was up for it, but I think it is important to honor James with this fundraiser every year. I want to keep his memory alive, and what better way than to raise money for St. Jude in his honor. Anyway, I will post the details when we figure them all out.

Thanks for keeping up with us. I will update again next week.

Rebecca