Five
James, Merry Christmas, sweet pea! It is hard to believe that this day is upon us once again. I have had you on my mind a lot more lately, with being home after your little brother was born.
I know you are somehow looking down on us, and that you also put in a good word (and some prayers) for him when he was sick. I just so wish you could be here, physically, with us! That wish will never end, but I also know, will never come true. Only we can come to where you are; in God's time~
I hope you are enjoying your lights again this year! And the little gifts that were left behind... and I could almost hear your chuckle as the barking dog was placed at your headstone...
It seems that every year, there will be a child at Brenner's that reminds us of you. Well, you know that happened again! His little personality and comments... and his love of Spiderman...
James, I realized the other day something, and it has been hard to get it off my mind:
2002, 2003, 2004. 2005, 2006: the years you were with us here for Christmas.
2007, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011: the same number of years that we have not shared a Christmas with you.
Five... the age you were when you died... the pain is still as severe this Christmas morning as it was in 2007. But I know that will never change. For we miss you more every day, just as our love for you is more every day. We also know that Caleb will help put some joy for us back into our lives... he already has done that. We talk to him every day about you... just as if you were here with him...
He seems to be in great paws... yep, by Oscar. Your silly dog follows us around, making sure we are taking care of him. He always wants to be by his side, but he likes to lick too much :)
Well, I must go for now... I hope you hear me talking to you, or at least my kisses are getting thru to you that I ask God to give you...
I hope the birthday party for Jesus is spectacular... and that you and all your little friends up there with you each get a candle to help him blow out...
Merry Christmas, sweet pea~
Missing you, today, and always~
Love,
Mommy, Daddy, Caleb... and all your family~
xoxoxoxoxo
