Hannah Grace Harrison's Journal
Written Jul 31, 2012 8:53pmTomorrow at 10:00 am our precious Hannah Grace left her earthly battle leaving behind her tired worn body to enter into her eternal reward. Hannah Grace is still one of the strongest people I have ever met here on this earth and am so blessed to have known her. We carry precious memories of her still. Marci posted yesterday on her Facebook that it was an honor to be her mother. I don't have the answers to the "why" questions that come, but I do know that God is still working His purpose through the life of our beautiful daughter.
As you can see by the picture in this post that we have been blessed with another beautiful little girl named Madalynn Rachel Harrison. Madalynn made her entrance into this world on April 10, 2012 at 12:40 am with a healthy body and a head full of hair. The first thing I saw on the paperwork when she was born was the military time that was recorded...00:40. For those of you who followed Hannah Grace's story from the beginning this will need no explanation. By no means will Madalynn ever take the place of her big sister, but even the moment she was born God showed us what a miracle she is. We for years to come will make sure she knows who her big sister was and how much she means to our lives.
Chandler and I took some time the other night to watch some videos of Hannah Grace and Chandler from a few years back. We got to laugh and see some of the great times we had. From time to time Chandler will ask when Hannah Grace is coming home that she has been gone too long. We look at him and tell him that we know, but that Hannah Grace lives with Jesus now. We assure him that even though she can't come see us that we can go see her.
Life is by no means normal, but each day brings new life of its own. With each passing day we are thankful for the time that we have here on this earth, but know that we are one day closer to be reunited with all those that are no longer with us. Madalynn gets showered with kisses each day as does Chandler. Going through diagnosis, treatment, relapse, etc... with Hannah Grace gives us a new perspective of how life should be lived. This has not been an easy road and we still have a rocky path ahead of us, but again we are thankful for each day that we have.
Peter wrote in his second Epistle chapter 2 verse 8 "But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day." I have thought about that verse many times in my life especially in the last two years. When we are in the presence of God time has no meaning. Hannah Grace has left her earthly body and the Word promises us that now she is with Him. I hope that two years removed in the presence of the Lord does she even know she has arrived in the presence of the Almighty. Will we be in the same position when we are in front of the One who is the Creator of the Universe? I hope one day to find out.
I know that our posts have been few and far between over the last year. I don't know if this will be our last post here, but by no means are we closing our Caringbridge. We still get notifications when the guestbook is signed and are encouraged by words of friends that we may never be able to meet face to face on this earth.
Hannah Grace is still with us in our memories and daily lives. We still have pictures, tell stories, and laugh about the funny things that our amazing daughter would do. The memories do bring more smiles these days, but there are still days filled with tears. Grief is not a process that you go down the checklist and once you check everything off it is finished. Grief is a lifelong process that I believe as the impression that was made on you by that person so is the grief that lingers. Grief is not a bad thing, it is a reminder of the love you have.
I look back over the last 5 years of our lives and think of the amazing people we have met....the Elijah's, the Grayson's, the Taylor's, the Kristen's, the Alexis', the Bayleigh's, the Janna's, the Carly's, the James'...we wouldn't be the people we are today without them. Nor will we ever forget the Charlie's, the Tucker's, the E.B.'s, the Courtney's, the Noah's or the Seth's. We feel the deep pain that families have gone through and continue to fight with. Each and everyone we have met through this journey have made us more than who we ever would have been alone. I can't say that I understand why we had to meet, but I am thankful for who we are today with you all in our lives.
What tomorrow brings will be hard, but tomorrow is another day and for that we are thankful. Squeeze tight those that you have close. I will close out with some lyrics from New Life Worship that mean so much to me, it is from the song the Great I Am.I wanna to be close close to your side
So Heaven is real and death is a lie
I wanna hear voices of angels above
Singing as oneI can't say the last two years that my faith hasn't been tested because it has. I can't say that I have always made the best decisions because I haven't, but I do know that our lives have been forever changed because of the miracle we had in our life named Hannah Grace Harrison. Her life even though it was short and filled with suffering made an impact on me like none other. I do believe that Heaven is real and that one day we will know all the answers. Until then we are called to those that we come in contact with every day to show them the love that has been shown to us.
Thank you so much for the love and prayers you have given and continue to give to our family. They are still needed and appreciated.
Jarrod, Marci, Chandler, and Madalynn Rachel...
3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4 who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.2 Corinthians 1: 3-4
A Time of Thankfulness...
Written Nov 23, 2011 9:02pmI know that it has been more than a while since we updated our CB page. Our CB was such an integral part of our lives for so long to be able to share, vent, ask prayer requests, and allow everyone who followed Hannah Grace's story to let you know how we were doing. Once Hannah Grace was no longer with us in this earthly body it took so much for me to even gather the strength to look at these pages. I do from time to time go back and read random updates from various stages in our journey. As I look back it does remind me of the good times and the bad times. It also serves as a reminder of what a blessing that will always be a part of our lives. Hannah Grace may not be with us physically, but she will always be a dear part of our hearts.
Thank you for the prayers for my dad back in June. He was having some really dizzy spells and a CT scan revealed a 2 cm tumor on the frontal lobe of his brain. After a successful tumor resection it was found that the tumor was benign. He is doing great now after some sinus repair surgery and is getting back to his old self. He can't drive yet, but he is getting ready for hunting season and still preaching every Sunday.
As for our family I started working again full time in April and Marci is still teaching. Chandler is in K-3 at a school here in Ashford and is doing great. Never does a holiday come close such as Thanksgiving or Christmas just around the corner that doesn't have a painful side with our family still having such a void it in without Hannah Grace. With that being said this Thanksgiving we have something a bit more to be thankful for. Marci and I are expecting our third child and we just found out this past Monday that it is going to be a little girl. So this coming April we will have a new addition to our home by the name of Madalynn Rachel. We are so very excited and thankful for this awesome blessing God has given us.
We pray for an easy pregnancy and a healthy little girl. We have talked about it and either way we would have been blessed with either a boy or a girl. I know in no way will this baby every take the place of our precious Hannah Grace, but I look so forward to meeting Madalynn and telling her so many stories about her big sister. Hannah Grace taught us so many lessons about life, love, and how to enjoy every moment. Not only am I thankful for the life that we are expecting next year; I am also thankful for the life we still cherish that Hannah Grace brought to us.
I will definitely keep everyone updated on how things are going and post pictures of our precious newborn once she is born. Thank you for your support and prayers over the past few years. We love each and every one of you.
Jarrod, Marci, and Chandler
Written Jul 12, 2011 8:28pm
Thank you for all your kind words in our guestbook, e-mails, and calls we still receive from the family of individuals we have met since Hannah Grace started her journey with cancer a little over 3 years ago. Our world has changed so significantly over the last year adjusting to the rest of our lives here on this earth without Hannah Grace, but every day we live is one day closer that we will be reunited with the precious gift God gave us.
This weekend was a tough one for our family. Of course with the upcoming one year anniversary of Hannah Grace passing away is constantly on our minds, but yet again our lives were thrown into chaos with one phone call on Saturday. A bit of a backstory it was 5 years ago our family experienced the loss of Marci's stepfather to a brain tumor, then our 3 year battle with cancer through Hannah Grace. To say that cancer has not been kind to our family is an understatement. Thursday night my dad had to be rushed to the emergency room with vomiting and severe vertigo. In the early hours of the morning the doctor ordered a CT scan which led to more tests on Friday. I don't think I have to lead into this, but they found a 2cm mass on the frontal lobe of his brain. To say we were devastated is an understatement. Just as our lives have adjusted to some sense of normalcy outside of this cancer world it felt like we were being drug back in kicking and screaming.
The weekend was one of waiting on test results to find out if the tumor was a primary tumor or metastatic disease from another area of the body. Answers wouldn't be known immediately and so the waiting game that we are used to began to tick seconds away on the clock that sometimes felt like days. On Monday we did find out that no other disease was present on the scans so the tumor was a primary location and surgery is scheduled for Wednesday. We met with the doctor today to find out that the tumor does appear to be benign. We are thankful for those words and the doctor does say that there is a 10% chance that it would be malignant, but we are believing for a benign tumor with complete resection.
The neurosurgeon is optimistic and pleased with the scans of the tumor. It is located in the right frontal lobe, but is growing from the lining of the brain and not located in the brain itself. My dad's spirits are high and is standing on his strong faith knowing he is in the hands of the Creator. I am thankful for the father God has blessed me with and have learned so much from him in my lifetime. We were relieved to receive the news we did today, but still need prayer that the surgery would go well with no complications. The surgery will start in the morning at 9 am. If all goes well with recovery my dad should be going on Friday.
Cancer is a word that has shaken our family more than once, but has not shaken our faith. The grace and love we have experienced through our experiences with cancer only strengthen us. It is not a path that we would choose or want anyone to walk, but we are thankful for the peace and comfort that God has given us to walk this journey. Please keep my father Benny in your prayers in the coming days that recovery would be swift and complications a minimum. Thank you in advance for all your prayers.
We did have to postpone our Fashion Show we had planned for this weekend to travel to Mobile for my dad's surgery and we will reschedule this at a later date. Also coming up August 2nd at the Wiregrass Commons Mall we will have a carnival for Hannah's Gifts of Hope with all proceeds going directly to the foundation to help families in the Wiregrass area that are being affected by cancer. We will have more details coming soon.
Jarrod, Marci, and Chandler