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Joyce Faye Cox
Joyce Faye Cox
Pamela,


It is a difficult struggle and no one can know how difficult except you.  But God will get you through it.  If you ever want to do something wild and crazy - visit me in Georgetown.  I am a military widow (isn't that a wierd word, especially for you so young) also but am sure not with the pain you suffered.  My heartfelt prayers are with you.


Joyce Faye Cox (friend and SS classmate of Rita and Al in El Dorado and my daughter Tara was a high school classmate of your Al)
Gayla Childers
Gayla Childers
Pamela,
 I was wondering how you were doing and now I know. I wish it were easier but it just isn't. But like you, I am glad that Hal is in a better place but know you miss him horribly. You were strong for so long and were there for him through the thick and the thin and know what it means to be there through the worst. But the one thing you did have with Hal was love that was so great and you were so lucky to find that! I know so many people who search for that kind of love and never find it, so know you are one of the lucky ones. But that doesn't make your loss any less painful and know that you ARE in my thoughts and prayers. And I will definitely keep you in my prayers as you search for a new direction and path. Know that God never leaves your side during these dark dark days and will help you along the new path you take.
Take care my young friend, Gayla C
Diana Comrad
Diana Comrad
Pamela,

I am so sad that I missed the memorial sevice Memorial Day! Uncle Kenny and I mentioned you and Hal often as we remembered last year that we were in Corpus for your wedding! It seems like only yesterday and at the same time years and years has slowly passed by. I agree with you about how happy Hal is and that he wouldn't trade places with us for anything!  I hope to see you when you are here the last of June. We will plan to make it over to Wichita for the fund raiser.

We Love you,

Uncle Kenny and Di
Barb O
Barb O
Dear Pamela,

Thank you for allowing us to walk this journey with you and Hal. We felt like we knew Hal and know you by your posts that you shared from your heart, love and faith. We will always hold you close in our thoughts, hearts and prayers. I hope you will update us occasionally on how you are doing because we care.

Blessings and Hugs from NE,
Rhonda Butterfield
Rhonda Butterfield
Pam

You and Hal's family are always in my prayers!! As I read your update all I could think was Thank you God for give Pam to Hal as His final blessing her on this earth! He knew true love grace and that special Joy that only you could bring Him. You were an ultimate gift for Hal as He was to you!

All that you said I could only agree. God is a big God and He made you the way you are so He can handle your Anger and handle picking you back up when your down. You work threw this the way you need too. Don't allow anyone to tell you that you are wrong in any of it. God made you and He will get you threw. He knew Hal needed you and you needed Him!! So take the steps that you need to take as you hold onto Gods hand! I'm here if you need me! I can offer lunch with 3 crazy kids a house full of noise :-) and games and a couch to fall into while watching a movie!! If you need me just let me know. :-)

I will continue to pray for you and all of your family!!

Love Rhonda
Marty Pope
Marty Pope
Pamela, as always, your testimony, your love and faith are an inspiration.  It's ok to be made at God - He can take it.  I'm glad the bad days are farther apart.  While you will never forget or stop loving Hal, you will heal, and meanwhile your witness gives hope and strength to others.  I hope Hal Sr. and Rita are a good support for you, and you for them.  Blessings to you.


 
PRISCILLA GUTIERREZ
PRISCILLA GUTIERREZ
Artist: Mercy Me
Song Title: Homesick
You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
'Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have

To see you again
To see you again
And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place

Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now


God bless you Pamela
shehuy merritt
shehuy merritt
Pamela,  Thank you again for allowing us an intimate glimpse into your heart.  I love your honesty and your openness.  You have such a precious heart that I know makes the Lord smile.  I hope to meet you some time.  Your life, your words, your heart, your faith have truly touched me and blessed my life.  Thank you.  I know the Lord is right with you, holding you.  I know He will walk through this difficult valley with you step by step, showing the way He has planned for you.  Praying for you, sister.
Barbara Deen
Barbara Deen
Hello Pamela,It's strange I still haven't met you and I find I am sitting down to write you my third letter.  I didn't know Hal real well I started reading about himbecause I have a friend who knows him and I live in El Dorado and my niece has a Caring Bridge she is 10 with Leukemia.When I wrote you before I talked to you about how strong you had been and how proud I was of you and then when Hal died I had been praying for you both so much I grieved for yours and the worlds loss of a terrific man.I lost my husband 10 years ago to lung cancer he worked out at the refinery in one of the labs.  The feelings you are going through hurt my heart to remember how raw my grief used to be.  I wore my wedding rings for years and took it off for a year and now I wear the engagement ring on my right hand.  Somehow it keeps me connected to him. I went through anger and grief where I just wanted to roll in a ball and grief and be left alone. David was 47 a bit older than Hal.  I was 51 and he was the love of my life.  Grief is the same for all of us and we all feel so alone going through it.  You are right to pick yourself up and try to hang tuff.  They are in a wonderful place and I feel Davis watches over me not with sadness but with love to make sure I'm holding it together.  I hate going to his grave because I know there is nothing there my Love is with the lord all that is left is dust to dust and ashes to ashes from this earth we are formed and back to it our body's go.  Not our souls, praise God, we will run into their arms some day and they will be waiting saying what took you so long.  For now live your life and be as happy as you can possibly be for God loves you and he has a mansion for you and Hal some day.God Bless You,Barbara Deen
sandy nace
sandy nace
Pam,  Thank you for your update.  I know how difficult is was to write that.  Know you are in my prayers often.  It is not an easy path but you are right - God is so with you and He totally understands your feelings and your anger.  You are doing well and I will continue to keep you in my prayers.  Sandy
Jennifer Voliner
Jennifer Voliner
Pam, you are so wise beyond your years.  I can relate to your thoughts more than you can imagine.  I have no been crying a ton and wonder what's wrong with me but then I threw away Gary's steak sauce this afternoon and became a heap of tears.  It's grief and it comes when it's good and ready!


I hope that your new home is filled with much joy and happiness and NO ILLNESS!


I love your description of heaven and believe it as well.  They are in an awesome place but it's so hard being left behind, isn't it?


Jennifer
John  Hogeland
John Hogeland
Pam it was good to hear from you on here...and to know how you are doing.  You are quite a strong little lady...and I stand amazed at your wisdom and strength.  I know your faith in the Lord have helped you so much, and gotten you through all of this.  Just remember that you are not alone...even when you feel alone, the Lord is always right there with you, as close as your next breath.  It will give you strength to dwell on Him.

I pray that the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ will be sufficient for you each and every day, as you adjust to life without Hal.

You are precious and I admire you.  We love Hal's family and we will continue to pray for all of you.

Love Linda and John Hogeland
Gayla Childers
Gayla Childers
Pamela,
 I was wondering how you were doing and now I know. I wish it were easier but it just isn't. But like you, I am glad that Hal is in a better place but know you miss him horribly. You were strong for so long and were there for him through the thick and the thin and know what it means to be there through the worst. But the one thing you did have with Hal was love that was so great and you were so lucky to find that! I know so many people who search for that kind of love and never find it, so know you are one of the lucky ones. But that doesn't make your loss any less painful and know that you ARE in my thoughts and prayers. And I will definitely keep you in my prayers as you search for a new direction and path. Know that God never leaves your side during these dark dark days and will help you along the new path you take.
Take care my young friend, Gayla C
Rhonda Butterfield
Rhonda Butterfield
Pam

You and Hal's family are always in my prayers!! As I read your update all I could think was Thank you God for give Pam to Hal as His final blessing her on this earth! He knew true love grace and that special Joy that only you could bring Him. You were an ultimate gift for Hal as He was to you!

All that you said I could only agree. God is a big God and He made you the way you are so He can handle your Anger and handle picking you back up when your down. You work threw this the way you need too. Don't allow anyone to tell you that you are wrong in any of it. God made you and He will get you threw. He knew Hal needed you and you needed Him!! So take the steps that you need to take as you hold onto Gods hand! I'm here if you need me! I can offer lunch with 3 crazy kids a house full of noise :-) and games and a couch to fall into while watching a movie!! If you need me just let me know. :-)

I will continue to pray for you and all of your family!!

Love Rhonda
PRISCILLA GUTIERREZ
PRISCILLA GUTIERREZ
Artist: Mercy Me
Song Title: Homesick
You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
'Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have

To see you again
To see you again
And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place

Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now


God bless you Pamela
shehuy merritt
shehuy merritt
Pamela,  Thank you again for allowing us an intimate glimpse into your heart.  I love your honesty and your openness.  You have such a precious heart that I know makes the Lord smile.  I hope to meet you some time.  Your life, your words, your heart, your faith have truly touched me and blessed my life.  Thank you.  I know the Lord is right with you, holding you.  I know He will walk through this difficult valley with you step by step, showing the way He has planned for you.  Praying for you, sister.
sandy nace
sandy nace
Pam,  Thank you for your update.  I know how difficult is was to write that.  Know you are in my prayers often.  It is not an easy path but you are right - God is so with you and He totally understands your feelings and your anger.  You are doing well and I will continue to keep you in my prayers.  Sandy
John  Hogeland
John Hogeland
Pam it was good to hear from you on here...and to know how you are doing.  You are quite a strong little lady...and I stand amazed at your wisdom and strength.  I know your faith in the Lord have helped you so much, and gotten you through all of this.  Just remember that you are not alone...even when you feel alone, the Lord is always right there with you, as close as your next breath.  It will give you strength to dwell on Him.

I pray that the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ will be sufficient for you each and every day, as you adjust to life without Hal.

You are precious and I admire you.  We love Hal's family and we will continue to pray for all of you.

Love Linda and John Hogeland
Joyce Faye Cox
Joyce Faye Cox
Pamela,


It is a difficult struggle and no one can know how difficult except you.  But God will get you through it.  If you ever want to do something wild and crazy - visit me in Georgetown.  I am a military widow (isn't that a wierd word, especially for you so young) also but am sure not with the pain you suffered.  My heartfelt prayers are with you.


Joyce Faye Cox (friend and SS classmate of Rita and Al in El Dorado and my daughter Tara was a high school classmate of your Al)
Diana Comrad
Diana Comrad
Pamela,

I am so sad that I missed the memorial sevice Memorial Day! Uncle Kenny and I mentioned you and Hal often as we remembered last year that we were in Corpus for your wedding! It seems like only yesterday and at the same time years and years has slowly passed by. I agree with you about how happy Hal is and that he wouldn't trade places with us for anything!  I hope to see you when you are here the last of June. We will plan to make it over to Wichita for the fund raiser.

We Love you,

Uncle Kenny and Di
Barb O
Barb O
Dear Pamela,

Thank you for allowing us to walk this journey with you and Hal. We felt like we knew Hal and know you by your posts that you shared from your heart, love and faith. We will always hold you close in our thoughts, hearts and prayers. I hope you will update us occasionally on how you are doing because we care.

Blessings and Hugs from NE,
Marty Pope
Marty Pope
Pamela, as always, your testimony, your love and faith are an inspiration.  It's ok to be made at God - He can take it.  I'm glad the bad days are farther apart.  While you will never forget or stop loving Hal, you will heal, and meanwhile your witness gives hope and strength to others.  I hope Hal Sr. and Rita are a good support for you, and you for them.  Blessings to you.


 
Barbara Deen
Barbara Deen
Hello Pamela,It's strange I still haven't met you and I find I am sitting down to write you my third letter.  I didn't know Hal real well I started reading about himbecause I have a friend who knows him and I live in El Dorado and my niece has a Caring Bridge she is 10 with Leukemia.When I wrote you before I talked to you about how strong you had been and how proud I was of you and then when Hal died I had been praying for you both so much I grieved for yours and the worlds loss of a terrific man.I lost my husband 10 years ago to lung cancer he worked out at the refinery in one of the labs.  The feelings you are going through hurt my heart to remember how raw my grief used to be.  I wore my wedding rings for years and took it off for a year and now I wear the engagement ring on my right hand.  Somehow it keeps me connected to him. I went through anger and grief where I just wanted to roll in a ball and grief and be left alone. David was 47 a bit older than Hal.  I was 51 and he was the love of my life.  Grief is the same for all of us and we all feel so alone going through it.  You are right to pick yourself up and try to hang tuff.  They are in a wonderful place and I feel Davis watches over me not with sadness but with love to make sure I'm holding it together.  I hate going to his grave because I know there is nothing there my Love is with the lord all that is left is dust to dust and ashes to ashes from this earth we are formed and back to it our body's go.  Not our souls, praise God, we will run into their arms some day and they will be waiting saying what took you so long.  For now live your life and be as happy as you can possibly be for God loves you and he has a mansion for you and Hal some day.God Bless You,Barbara Deen
Jennifer Voliner
Jennifer Voliner
Pam, you are so wise beyond your years.  I can relate to your thoughts more than you can imagine.  I have no been crying a ton and wonder what's wrong with me but then I threw away Gary's steak sauce this afternoon and became a heap of tears.  It's grief and it comes when it's good and ready!


I hope that your new home is filled with much joy and happiness and NO ILLNESS!


I love your description of heaven and believe it as well.  They are in an awesome place but it's so hard being left behind, isn't it?


Jennifer
Diana Comrad
Diana Comrad
Pamela,

I am so sad that I missed the memorial sevice Memorial Day! Uncle Kenny and I mentioned you and Hal often as we remembered last year that we were in Corpus for your wedding! It seems like only yesterday and at the same time years and years has slowly passed by. I agree with you about how happy Hal is and that he wouldn't trade places with us for anything!  I hope to see you when you are here the last of June. We will plan to make it over to Wichita for the fund raiser.

We Love you,

Uncle Kenny and Di
Rhonda Butterfield
Rhonda Butterfield
Pam

You and Hal's family are always in my prayers!! As I read your update all I could think was Thank you God for give Pam to Hal as His final blessing her on this earth! He knew true love grace and that special Joy that only you could bring Him. You were an ultimate gift for Hal as He was to you!

All that you said I could only agree. God is a big God and He made you the way you are so He can handle your Anger and handle picking you back up when your down. You work threw this the way you need too. Don't allow anyone to tell you that you are wrong in any of it. God made you and He will get you threw. He knew Hal needed you and you needed Him!! So take the steps that you need to take as you hold onto Gods hand! I'm here if you need me! I can offer lunch with 3 crazy kids a house full of noise :-) and games and a couch to fall into while watching a movie!! If you need me just let me know. :-)

I will continue to pray for you and all of your family!!

Love Rhonda
Jennifer Voliner
Jennifer Voliner
Pam, you are so wise beyond your years.  I can relate to your thoughts more than you can imagine.  I have no been crying a ton and wonder what's wrong with me but then I threw away Gary's steak sauce this afternoon and became a heap of tears.  It's grief and it comes when it's good and ready!


I hope that your new home is filled with much joy and happiness and NO ILLNESS!


I love your description of heaven and believe it as well.  They are in an awesome place but it's so hard being left behind, isn't it?


Jennifer
Joyce Faye Cox
Joyce Faye Cox
Pamela,


It is a difficult struggle and no one can know how difficult except you.  But God will get you through it.  If you ever want to do something wild and crazy - visit me in Georgetown.  I am a military widow (isn't that a wierd word, especially for you so young) also but am sure not with the pain you suffered.  My heartfelt prayers are with you.


Joyce Faye Cox (friend and SS classmate of Rita and Al in El Dorado and my daughter Tara was a high school classmate of your Al)
Marty Pope
Marty Pope
Pamela, as always, your testimony, your love and faith are an inspiration.  It's ok to be made at God - He can take it.  I'm glad the bad days are farther apart.  While you will never forget or stop loving Hal, you will heal, and meanwhile your witness gives hope and strength to others.  I hope Hal Sr. and Rita are a good support for you, and you for them.  Blessings to you.


 
shehuy merritt
shehuy merritt
Pamela,  Thank you again for allowing us an intimate glimpse into your heart.  I love your honesty and your openness.  You have such a precious heart that I know makes the Lord smile.  I hope to meet you some time.  Your life, your words, your heart, your faith have truly touched me and blessed my life.  Thank you.  I know the Lord is right with you, holding you.  I know He will walk through this difficult valley with you step by step, showing the way He has planned for you.  Praying for you, sister.
Barbara Deen
Barbara Deen
Hello Pamela,It's strange I still haven't met you and I find I am sitting down to write you my third letter.  I didn't know Hal real well I started reading about himbecause I have a friend who knows him and I live in El Dorado and my niece has a Caring Bridge she is 10 with Leukemia.When I wrote you before I talked to you about how strong you had been and how proud I was of you and then when Hal died I had been praying for you both so much I grieved for yours and the worlds loss of a terrific man.I lost my husband 10 years ago to lung cancer he worked out at the refinery in one of the labs.  The feelings you are going through hurt my heart to remember how raw my grief used to be.  I wore my wedding rings for years and took it off for a year and now I wear the engagement ring on my right hand.  Somehow it keeps me connected to him. I went through anger and grief where I just wanted to roll in a ball and grief and be left alone. David was 47 a bit older than Hal.  I was 51 and he was the love of my life.  Grief is the same for all of us and we all feel so alone going through it.  You are right to pick yourself up and try to hang tuff.  They are in a wonderful place and I feel Davis watches over me not with sadness but with love to make sure I'm holding it together.  I hate going to his grave because I know there is nothing there my Love is with the lord all that is left is dust to dust and ashes to ashes from this earth we are formed and back to it our body's go.  Not our souls, praise God, we will run into their arms some day and they will be waiting saying what took you so long.  For now live your life and be as happy as you can possibly be for God loves you and he has a mansion for you and Hal some day.God Bless You,Barbara Deen
John  Hogeland
John Hogeland
Pam it was good to hear from you on here...and to know how you are doing.  You are quite a strong little lady...and I stand amazed at your wisdom and strength.  I know your faith in the Lord have helped you so much, and gotten you through all of this.  Just remember that you are not alone...even when you feel alone, the Lord is always right there with you, as close as your next breath.  It will give you strength to dwell on Him.

I pray that the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ will be sufficient for you each and every day, as you adjust to life without Hal.

You are precious and I admire you.  We love Hal's family and we will continue to pray for all of you.

Love Linda and John Hogeland
Gayla Childers
Gayla Childers
Pamela,
 I was wondering how you were doing and now I know. I wish it were easier but it just isn't. But like you, I am glad that Hal is in a better place but know you miss him horribly. You were strong for so long and were there for him through the thick and the thin and know what it means to be there through the worst. But the one thing you did have with Hal was love that was so great and you were so lucky to find that! I know so many people who search for that kind of love and never find it, so know you are one of the lucky ones. But that doesn't make your loss any less painful and know that you ARE in my thoughts and prayers. And I will definitely keep you in my prayers as you search for a new direction and path. Know that God never leaves your side during these dark dark days and will help you along the new path you take.
Take care my young friend, Gayla C
Barb O
Barb O
Dear Pamela,

Thank you for allowing us to walk this journey with you and Hal. We felt like we knew Hal and know you by your posts that you shared from your heart, love and faith. We will always hold you close in our thoughts, hearts and prayers. I hope you will update us occasionally on how you are doing because we care.

Blessings and Hugs from NE,
PRISCILLA GUTIERREZ
PRISCILLA GUTIERREZ
Artist: Mercy Me
Song Title: Homesick
You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
'Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have

To see you again
To see you again
And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place

Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now


God bless you Pamela
sandy nace
sandy nace
Pam,  Thank you for your update.  I know how difficult is was to write that.  Know you are in my prayers often.  It is not an easy path but you are right - God is so with you and He totally understands your feelings and your anger.  You are doing well and I will continue to keep you in my prayers.  Sandy