This Star Won't Go Out!

Star, I
told you I would write your story! <3


It seems
that Esther's Star shows no signs of dimming! Toward the end, as her health was
declining, I promised her I would write her story. I realize now that I was
trying to control the inevitable, trying to tame death and that writing would
be a way of somehow keeping her here. I guess I sort of knew that, then, but I
was reeling with grief. I still am. Everyone who knew Esther will never get
over her awful, early departure. 

But her
star will not go out! Love is like that: it cannot die. It may change, or
flicker but it's finally indestructible. I really believe that. Of course, I
knew the power that was Esther, held her as a newborn and held her in death and
loved her with all my heart in the in between times and she was a mighty force.
I am not afraid of death and neither was she. I am so grateful that Penguin has
miraculously (thank you John Green!) agreed to publish some of what I wrote alongside Esther's journals
and other writings. That's where the real story is as her talent is amazing.
From the press release,

unique memoir will be published in close collaboration with Wayne and Lori
Earl, Esther’s parents, who said, “Esther dreamed of being an author.  Her
life was her book.  She didn't get to choose the ending, but the way she
filled the pages made her story irresistible. Sharing our Star—our amazing
burst of sunshine—
is a way of spreading light. We hope others will be
changed as we have been.”

as a family, we are extremely touched by the many Guestbook entries recorded on
this site. Esther loved reading them and I am sure -though I imagine she is
involved in more interesting things these days- that, if it's possible, she's still blessed by
your thoughts. And why not? If our love for her intensifies over time, then surely her
passion for us cannot abate, right? Certainly, her Star continues to shine and
that brightness inspires us, comforts us, and reminds us that we have much to
live for. So live here, now, and make it your aim to care deeply for others. That's what she did and I see no way to improve upon that.

~Esther's dad

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Ester Reis
By Ester — last edited
Hello, first I wanted to say that I am from Brazil, IE NOT speak English (haahahaha). All que here was Past google translator dripping hair. The Story of Esther moved me very encouraged me and influenced me. He taught me things in life that I could not understand, taught me that not everything in life is How We want. And What Else Lesson SERVED me, What Else I called Attention, What made me think more and think and think, and what Esther nos taught to live life CAN FOR IN, taught us to see the life of One Another way .. In taught to love while HAVE time, enjoy All The Power. He taught us to live much in rhythm LITTLE ... My name is Esther Also, and look like very etrelinha THIS. I am very happy BY Opinion me both with ALS without name mostly. She taught me so much stuff and not even know it .. wish I had one know her opportunity. Power Grow More, Learn to Speak English and Power talk to IT BECAUSE I know you all love to talk to HER! <3 I needed to say how much she and Paper (without Case Diary) it influenced me, I learned a new way of seeing life, and always something bad negative OU happens, I think In it .. In the phrase What SHE CREATED, THE WORDS Said FOR IT, I think It. Never forget It. Esther influenced VARIOUS Lives! She was, and è la in heaven, a person Incredible! Thank you for teaching me so much Esther <3
From: Esther
For Esther and Earl YOUR Family
Lily Andrews
By Lily Andrews
I'm so glad that Esther had your support and knew God was with her through hard times. I'm praying for you all to have strength and continue to find refuge in Him. I'm so, so, so sorry for everything you've been through- I know it's been a lot. I hope our prayers help.
Gracie Owens
By Gracie Owens — last edited
Hi, my name is Gracie Owens. I am currently reading This Star Won't Go Out. I am 11 years old. As soon as i found out that I could learn more about Esther on this website I immediately got out my computer!
My parents are currently getting a divorce and Esther's talk about God has really encouraged me. OH! HOW I WISH I COULD HAVE MET ESTHER!!! But i know i will someday in heaven... i can't wait! I will always be praying for your family. I LOVE Esther's youtube posts, she is always soooooo HAPPY! I know Esther is no longer here on earth but i wish you could keep me updated on this page if you are ever having any struggles and need me to pray.
Gabby N
By Gabby — last edited
I am currently reading her book and I am amazed at how much love there was in one girl. Esther is an inspiration not only to people with cancer but everyone in the world. Esther LOVED and did nothing but and love is something we need right now. She has shown me that the sun WILL always come out tomorrow. Everyone has one person that impacts their life and changes it for the better, I believe Esther has done that for me. She has shown me that love and confidence conquer all. Esther was truly a special girl someone I would have been honored to meet or ever be friends with. Esther has helped me to see the world in a different way. She has shown me that treating everyone with love and finding the good side to people puts me on track to start living like she did, with love. Esther has taught me a lesson, a very important one I should say, and she will remain in my heart forever. God Bless
Aleia McCready
By Aleia
I am reading the book "this star won't go out", and I wish I could meet Esther. She sounded like an amazing person. We seem to have a lot in common and I wish I knew about her sooner so I could have visited her. Her inspiring diary entrees make me want to be more connected with God and always trust his/her judgement. I can not bare to think someone so young and innocent being taken away for no reason, but I guess God has his/her reasons for everything. This inspirational story wants me to donate and help cancer patients. Thank you so much for being in this world Esther I wish I could meet you!!!
Lissete López
By Lissy — last edited
El libro, sólo una inspiración, tal vez, yo soy de Chile y tengo cáncer, pero después de leer la historia de Ester me ayudó, sólo una inspiración.
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Sydney Harrold
By Sydney Marie
I am reading that book and it is very inspiring Esther sound very amazing I love that no matter what she was always happy. (or at least it sounds like it in the book) I really appreciate that you are sharing her story because it is beautiful.I wish that we could have gotten a chance to meet because she sounds pretty awesome!
estella kxsk
By estella kxsk — last edited
i have already read Esther book and i cried a lot her dead. She was fantastic. i saw all her videos. when i was reading her book i wished to be her friend. she change my life. i wish i can met her to speak with this amazing person. before read about Esther life i thought that we are born to die but now i think that we are born to live our live and it doesn't matter how long is going to be . esther change my mind.
excuse my english i'm from spain. I hope you understand
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Anto Sierpe
By Anto Sierpe
Acabo de terminar de leer tu historia. Y como lo dice el libro cambia la forma de ver el mundo. Es impresionante como a pesar del cáncer, fuiste agradecida hasta el último minuto. Y como quisiste a las persona. Realmente maravilloso. Muchos besos a la familia de Esther, desde Argentina
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sadie soria
By Sadie Robby
Hey, i just wanted to let you know, that i didn't know Esther but i wish i did she seems like a saint and i know we all make mistakes but somehow i think Esther only made some. I wish i met Esther she seems like a great funny girl. I'm in love with this book you guys did a really good job. And so did John Green,lol.
i really would've liked to meet Esther... *SNIFFLES* that would be my one dream no celebrity no super model ESTHER that's who... please e-mail back.... ;')
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