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This Star Won't Go Out!

Star, I
told you I would write your story! <3


It seems
that Esther's Star shows no signs of dimming! Toward the end, as her health was
declining, I promised her I would write her story. I realize now that I was
trying to control the inevitable, trying to tame death and that writing would
be a way of somehow keeping her here. I guess I sort of knew that, then, but I
was reeling with grief. I still am. Everyone who knew Esther will never get
over her awful, early departure. 

But her
star will not go out! Love is like that: it cannot die. It may change, or
flicker but it's finally indestructible. I really believe that. Of course, I
knew the power that was Esther, held her as a newborn and held her in death and
loved her with all my heart in the in between times and she was a mighty force.
I am not afraid of death and neither was she. I am so grateful that Penguin has
miraculously (thank you John Green!) agreed to publish some of what I wrote alongside Esther's journals
and other writings. That's where the real story is as her talent is amazing.
From the press release,

unique memoir will be published in close collaboration with Wayne and Lori
Earl, Esther’s parents, who said, “Esther dreamed of being an author.  Her
life was her book.  She didn't get to choose the ending, but the way she
filled the pages made her story irresistible. Sharing our Star—our amazing
burst of sunshine—
is a way of spreading light. We hope others will be
changed as we have been.”

as a family, we are extremely touched by the many Guestbook entries recorded on
this site. Esther loved reading them and I am sure -though I imagine she is
involved in more interesting things these days- that, if it's possible, she's still blessed by
your thoughts. And why not? If our love for her intensifies over time, then surely her
passion for us cannot abate, right? Certainly, her Star continues to shine and
that brightness inspires us, comforts us, and reminds us that we have much to
live for. So live here, now, and make it your aim to care deeply for others. That's what she did and I see no way to improve upon that.

~Esther's dad

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ally sindeaux
By ally
se Esther ainda estivesse aqui, sei que ela seria uma escritora tao boa quanto John green. ela era linda, confiante e forte. você tiveram sorte de te-la como filha pois ela foi uma pessoa incrível e inspiradora, ela me fez querer sem algum melhor e também ver por outro lado as pessoas com câncer. obrigada Esther grace por inspirar o melhor livro de John green. <3
Yasmine Mosen
By Yasmine
Esther, I'm just halfway through reading your tear producing and extremely inspirational book, girl. You know that I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. You are an absolute inspiration and I am literally wiping my tears as I'm typing this. Cancer? Don't we all wish cancer would get cancer. But you made it, soldier! You're in God's very arms, Him probably reading the Bible to you. I feel so honored to be Persian because your name is originally Persian. I love you so much, that I would pray for you every time I'm free. God bless your soul and your amazing family. You won't ever go out.
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Ahlaam Rafiq
By Ahlaam Rafiq
Yo Nerdfighter!!!!!
Honestly? You beat John Green. The book rocks. I'd love to read more of your stuff...even your grocery lists.
Dear Earls, keep the star burning.
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sheyenne howard
By sheyenne howard
I am currently reading the book and by far the best one..I think she's an awesome person. And a really true fighter..I wish all the best
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Madison Likens
I am in the middle of reading her book and I think that she is an amazing person and a true fighter! I wish you all the best
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Ana Francatto
By Ana Julia
estou lendo o livro sobre a Esther, e mesmo sem conhecê-la, amei seu jeito de lidar com a vida e a morte, Esther foi uma garota incrível, as vezes, no silêncio da noite, quando estou lendo seu livro, simplesmente recuo e choro, vocês tiveram uma filha maravilhosa, e que com certeza encantou o mundo inteiro
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Laura S
By Laura
Eu li o livro e eu sinto muito por vocês.
Ela foi uma pessoa maravilhosa e vocês também, Lori e Wayne. Imagino como ela deve ter ficado no Make-A-Wish ao lado de John Green, Dumbledore, cofundador da HPA e seus amigos do Catitude. Ela seria uma menina maravilhosa hoje, e eu sei que ela está sendo maravilhosa lá em cima. Aquele desejo dela de beijar um garoto escrito no diário, as cartas de "feliz dia das mães" e etc. Tem um tempo do falecimento, mas continua sendo difícil e o Brasil apoia muito toda essa família.
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