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Clara Veloso
Clara Veloso
dear esther,

I hope that where you are able to read all these wonderful messages that leave here on your page. Your friend John Green wrote a wonderful book in honor of you (can already be proud). The book of your life is extraordinary! It's a shame that the world has lost a star like you! Rest in Peace Star!
Hailey Brown
Hailey Brown.
Hello Esther:]
I just wanted to go ahead and say thank you so much for everything. The book that you inspired John to write has changed my life and brought me into the wonderful world of Nerdfighteria.
Ever since I joined this community I feel like I'm learning about myself and finding me, which is a huge relief.
Nerdfighteria has impacted me in ways you couldn't imagine.
I hope you're doing well on the other side Esther. I don't know what I would have done without Nerdfighteria and John and Hank and all the nerdfighters' support.  So thank you again. 
Samantha Sena
Samantha Sena
Hi Esther!!!
I'm Samantha, I really honestly don't know you but I'm hoping wherever you are and however your doing that your happy. I just started reading The Fault in Our Stars and its amazing, considering I'm a thirteen year old girl with no life this book is possibly the best thing thats ever happened to me. I really like greek mythology and ancient cultures and. . .  stuff XD so anyway I wish you a happy morning afternoon and night and eat some pie. . . .  Seriously eat some pie its good for you , or cake, pastries are good too. NERDFIGHTERS WHOOHOOO



Erin Ralph Johnson
Erin DFTBA
Hi Esther!

I never knew you when you were alive, which is so sad for me! I found out about your lovely, heart wrenching story through John Green's The Fault In Our Stars, which I happened to read clearly at God's nudging. I am so grateful to know of you and your story, to have been able to connect with your parents on Facebook (I love that they're so sweet and accessible!) and be able to be apart of this amazing story. I hope you're having an amazing time in Heaven...how could you not??? I can't wait to see you when I eventually get there (hopefully many moons from now!). In the meantime I wanted to express my love and gratitude for your awesomeness! I am a better person because of you! 

~Erin 

Dilekk Kısacık
Dilekk Kısacık
Hi Esther... you and I recognized all over the world. God loves you so it must be you must be. In the world we would have been left. I am in Turkey, if you are with your family and all the while touring the country this is a little... but it seems impossible under the Stars of the film and kitanindan after this story cannot be empty then I said, I have heard thee I have read, watched, I knew I love You... Esther, we wait for us in heaven...
Sarah Friedman
Sarah Friedman
I am almost done reading This Star Won't Go Out! I really wish I got the chance to meet Esther because I think we would have a lot to talk about as I am also a major fan of Harry Potter! I found out about Hazel through an amazing author John Green. I watched vlog brothers and John would talk about Esther and so later on I found some of Esther's video blogs and I just fell in love with them! Esther is a really big inspiration to me!


REST IN AWESOME!!!!
Sarah Friedman
Sarah Friedman
It's been a few years since Esther passed away but I just wanted to let her know that I am currently reading her book This Star Won't Go Out and it has inspired me to keep a journal because I have been going through a lot this year and being a 13 year old girl I wasn't really sure how to handle my emotions and keeping a journal has really helped! I hope you're having fun in heaven please say hi to my grandma for me! Love Sarah
Cassie Mitchell
Cassie Mitchell
July 10, 2014 Thursday 12:00pm


I have been reading This Star Won't Go Out and I can't tell you how much of an inspiration Esther is to me. I found out about this amazing book from the phenomenal author John Green. About a year ago I read a book titled The Fault In Our Stars by him and I read who it was dedicated to. So I finished TFIOS and then looked up Esther's name and I found the book. I got the book after begging for quite a bit and I am so happy that I have the book. I also watch John and Hank's videos on YouTube, which is where I heard about the book again. Esther has been such an inspiration and I also write journals. I was happy to find out that she wrote too. I also donated 10 inches of my hair in honor of Hazel Grace Lancaster and Esther for my birthday in March.


Long Live Esther Grace Earl. Xx








Ias Queiroz
Ias Queiroz
Hi, my name is Iasmim, 16 years old and I'm from Brazil. I bought the book This Star Won't Go Out and I'm in love with the story, the Esther's story is amazing. And I wanna say thank you to her family and friends. It's a amazing story and perfect, I would like to know her but.. So, that is it.. And I wanna say thank you to John Green too 'cause I read the fault in our stars and I didn't know that this book was inspired on her.. Rest in peace Esther.. we love you!
Cristina Yang
Alex
Hello!
My name is Alexandra, 25 years old and I'm from Germany. I first read John Green's "The fault in our stars" and then noticed the dedication to Esther.
I just looked this up, stumbled over TSWGO and ordered the book immediately.
I really was touched about all of you struggling for and with Esther. I was touched about her way of thinking about life. About herself living life to its fullest. About her funny comments and her thoughtful ones.
Now, after finishing this book, I also have to say that Esther leaves some impression on me. I haven't known her, I even didn't know about her existence but just by reading this book or watching her videos - although I still don't know her, she touches me deep in my heart.

Dear Esther, you ARE incredibly AWESOME! In your whole human being - you're awesome. I really hope that you now can run around without any oxygen machine, laughing a lot and enjoying yourself (and writing books!).

Dear family of Esther,
please continue having the faith and strength to live life to its fullest, too!
There's nothing greater for a child to experience the love and support of its family. I'm sure (and I'm also sure you know) that Esther was really greatful to you all! Thank you for sharing her thoughts and feelings with this book with the world. Let her friends know her even better and other people, too.
Tadi T
Tadi T
Hi i am Tadi from Germany. I first wasn't sure if I should buy Esther's book because I had read a little of it before and just some pages made me think about love and life so hard I kept thinking about Esther ever since. But eventually I bought it which was the best decision. Normally I am the kind of person who reads quick to learn what happens at the end but this time I read slowly and carefully because I felt that I should appreciate every single story shared in the book. It changed my view of things especially love and giving back. Esther gave so much to so many people and also every time I walk somewhere I am thankful that I am able to just walk and don't think about it, that I am healthy. I cried a lot while reading and I feel so angry that such a special person had to die and honestly how cruel is the world to let Esther (and others) handle such unhandable things :( after I finished I just sat for a while and thought and after that I called people I love and told them I loved them. Thank you Esther and also the Earl family for sharing this story. ★
julia lima
julia lima
hi my name is julia I am 14 years old and live in Brazil I just have little time to read the book of Esther and it is simply incredible her story but she wanted to be known only to read his story already'm thankful because I'm fan jhon and it was thanks to him that I read the book because it is the fault of the stars is dedicated to her and if I had one wish it would have known esther is simply incredible very very very incredible it inspired me her book makes us laugh, cry but he brings something that I never knew I had in me want to be like esther was and am very grateful to have known her story
A BIG KISS ONE OF THE BIGGEST FANS OF ESTHER
and if the translation is bad is the fault of google kkkkkkkk
Mardi Celli
Mardi Celli
You've impacted me, in the best possible way.
                         Thank you, Esther Earl for gracing me with your life. Even if through just a book. You're an inspiration Esther, I wish it would have been in gods plan for you to see all these lovely messages being sent to you. 
                                                                       You Deserve It. 
            
                                                                                                                                                - mardi 
Jillian Harper
Jillian
I just got done reading This Star Won't Go Out!! I want to start off by saying thank you for sharing the words of Esther. I am not a big reader--never have been--but I got this book in the morning and had it read by the late night. I just couldn't set it down. While reading her story I took breaks to watch the videos she made on YouTube (corresponding with her journal entries in which she talked about each video). I can only imagine all the thoughts that went through Esther's head and I thank her for taking the time to write such a numerous amount of her thoughts down. I also can't even begin to imagine the pain she went through the years she had cancer. Despite the pain, however, her story never showed signs of her taking her guard down. I just think it's amazing how, to the end, Esther had such a great outlook on life. Her words are a great lesson to teenagers and adults alike and her words will live on forever. I would truly like to meet her, and I'm sure I'll have that opportunity one day where I too walk with Him in the "green hillside with a really blue sky, and lots of pink and colorful flowers." Some infinities are in fact bigger than others and I think Esther's infinity will be forever living not only in your hearts but in the hearts of anyone and everyone that has had the amazing opportunity to hear her story in her own words. 
Lauren A-D
Lauren A-D
Hi Esther. So this is my first time saying anything to you. Yeah I could talk about how your death sucks and pisses me off but why? That's no fun. I wanted to tell you about the last Harry Potter movie so why talk about something so lame instead? Well I have no Idea why I would want to do that soooo I won't . So the movie. They followed the book pretty well but nothing's ever exact unfortunately ( ugh DX ) anyways Deaths- Fred's: saddest by far . George was so beyond devastated (cries forever) Tonk and Lupin: they die holding hands  DX just like in the book :( - :) - idk haha Bellatrix : so beyond perfect "NOT MY DAUGHTER YOU B*****!!!" Hahahaha it was the greatest !!!!!! Snape : (was actually right all along) lol u knew that already you read the books before - I did too but ya know - so he was right then people felt bad Nagina- NEVILLE WAS WEARING A SWEATER WHEN HE DID IT Voldemort : Crazy crazy battle of pure awesome "Harry" - very inspirational great graphics and DUMBLEDORE. Additions: turns out Neville had a huge crush on Luna! Ya it was awesome. Then you get to see the whole gang ..more or less... In 19 years It's soo beyond cute. :) . So yeah best movie ever also EXTRA Ron and Hermione first kiss rate : INFINITE STARS!! Funny and random and cute and ugh perfect! So guess what you've got a book out!! It's so good. John Green does your intro your mom and dad write a fair amount along with some doctors and what not but they add lots of your words and basically ... Not to be to up front but you're my favorite author . Speaking of Mr. Green I AM ALSO A HUGE NERDFIGHTER! He dedicate a book to you it's called " The Fault in Our Stars" it's sooo good they made a movie which -I can only say it in one way- is all the rave . The main Character is Hazel Grace Lancaster , GRACE yeah IKR !!! So beyond awesome. :) also you're kinda a big thing in the NerdFigther world ya even bigger than you where before !! You're the bomb diggity my friend! So I'll talk to you later cause Jk Rowlings got a movie that she's making and unfortunately there's no book to go with that but I'll tell ya all about it full detail and I'll talk to you just in general .. If that's good with you. So stay awesome in the sky you crazy cool kiddo hehe
Kiyon Cho
Kiyon Cho
Dear Esther,
I am really sorry for your passing. You seemed like such an awesome person from all that I've read and seen (I'm subscribed to your YouTube channel) of you. I read your book, and the book dedicated to you. You seemed like such a strong and truly happy person. I didn't know you, Esther. Keeping that in mind, I probably shouldn't even be posting this now, but I know OF you. Your story has inspired me, and given me that extra boost that was needed. Your struggles with cancer are truly heart breaking, yet your positive attitude makes up for it. Esther, you are my role model. And, repeating myself, I didn't know you, but you seemed like a happy and intelligent writer who loves Harry Potter. If you really are that, then I want to be just like you. Esther, you have left your mark on this world, except it is not a scar like Augustus had said. It's such a shame that such a good soul was wasted, but the Lord knows what he's doing, and hopefully He now has you safely with him in Heaven. But, yeah. Getting off of THAT sad topic, YOU MISSED THE LAST HARRY POTTER MOVIE! It was great. It pretty much stuck to the book, but nothing is perfect, so there is ALWAYS at least one change. Currently, they're making a new Harry Potter movie, one that does not have a book to coincide with it, so when it comes out, I'll be back to tell you all about it. See ya around, Esther.
Clara Veloso
Clara Veloso
dear esther,

I hope that where you are able to read all these wonderful messages that leave here on your page. Your friend John Green wrote a wonderful book in honor of you (can already be proud). The book of your life is extraordinary! It's a shame that the world has lost a star like you! Rest in Peace Star!
Hailey Brown
Hailey Brown.
Hello Esther:]
I just wanted to go ahead and say thank you so much for everything. The book that you inspired John to write has changed my life and brought me into the wonderful world of Nerdfighteria.
Ever since I joined this community I feel like I'm learning about myself and finding me, which is a huge relief.
Nerdfighteria has impacted me in ways you couldn't imagine.
I hope you're doing well on the other side Esther. I don't know what I would have done without Nerdfighteria and John and Hank and all the nerdfighters' support.  So thank you again. 
Samantha Sena
Samantha Sena
Hi Esther!!!
I'm Samantha, I really honestly don't know you but I'm hoping wherever you are and however your doing that your happy. I just started reading The Fault in Our Stars and its amazing, considering I'm a thirteen year old girl with no life this book is possibly the best thing thats ever happened to me. I really like greek mythology and ancient cultures and. . .  stuff XD so anyway I wish you a happy morning afternoon and night and eat some pie. . . .  Seriously eat some pie its good for you , or cake, pastries are good too. NERDFIGHTERS WHOOHOOO



Dilekk Kısacık
Dilekk Kısacık
Hi Esther... you and I recognized all over the world. God loves you so it must be you must be. In the world we would have been left. I am in Turkey, if you are with your family and all the while touring the country this is a little... but it seems impossible under the Stars of the film and kitanindan after this story cannot be empty then I said, I have heard thee I have read, watched, I knew I love You... Esther, we wait for us in heaven...
Sarah Friedman
Sarah Friedman
It's been a few years since Esther passed away but I just wanted to let her know that I am currently reading her book This Star Won't Go Out and it has inspired me to keep a journal because I have been going through a lot this year and being a 13 year old girl I wasn't really sure how to handle my emotions and keeping a journal has really helped! I hope you're having fun in heaven please say hi to my grandma for me! Love Sarah
Ias Queiroz
Ias Queiroz
Hi, my name is Iasmim, 16 years old and I'm from Brazil. I bought the book This Star Won't Go Out and I'm in love with the story, the Esther's story is amazing. And I wanna say thank you to her family and friends. It's a amazing story and perfect, I would like to know her but.. So, that is it.. And I wanna say thank you to John Green too 'cause I read the fault in our stars and I didn't know that this book was inspired on her.. Rest in peace Esther.. we love you!
Tadi T
Tadi T
Hi i am Tadi from Germany. I first wasn't sure if I should buy Esther's book because I had read a little of it before and just some pages made me think about love and life so hard I kept thinking about Esther ever since. But eventually I bought it which was the best decision. Normally I am the kind of person who reads quick to learn what happens at the end but this time I read slowly and carefully because I felt that I should appreciate every single story shared in the book. It changed my view of things especially love and giving back. Esther gave so much to so many people and also every time I walk somewhere I am thankful that I am able to just walk and don't think about it, that I am healthy. I cried a lot while reading and I feel so angry that such a special person had to die and honestly how cruel is the world to let Esther (and others) handle such unhandable things :( after I finished I just sat for a while and thought and after that I called people I love and told them I loved them. Thank you Esther and also the Earl family for sharing this story. ★
Mardi Celli
Mardi Celli
You've impacted me, in the best possible way.
                         Thank you, Esther Earl for gracing me with your life. Even if through just a book. You're an inspiration Esther, I wish it would have been in gods plan for you to see all these lovely messages being sent to you. 
                                                                       You Deserve It. 
            
                                                                                                                                                - mardi 
Lauren A-D
Lauren A-D
Hi Esther. So this is my first time saying anything to you. Yeah I could talk about how your death sucks and pisses me off but why? That's no fun. I wanted to tell you about the last Harry Potter movie so why talk about something so lame instead? Well I have no Idea why I would want to do that soooo I won't . So the movie. They followed the book pretty well but nothing's ever exact unfortunately ( ugh DX ) anyways Deaths- Fred's: saddest by far . George was so beyond devastated (cries forever) Tonk and Lupin: they die holding hands  DX just like in the book :( - :) - idk haha Bellatrix : so beyond perfect "NOT MY DAUGHTER YOU B*****!!!" Hahahaha it was the greatest !!!!!! Snape : (was actually right all along) lol u knew that already you read the books before - I did too but ya know - so he was right then people felt bad Nagina- NEVILLE WAS WEARING A SWEATER WHEN HE DID IT Voldemort : Crazy crazy battle of pure awesome "Harry" - very inspirational great graphics and DUMBLEDORE. Additions: turns out Neville had a huge crush on Luna! Ya it was awesome. Then you get to see the whole gang ..more or less... In 19 years It's soo beyond cute. :) . So yeah best movie ever also EXTRA Ron and Hermione first kiss rate : INFINITE STARS!! Funny and random and cute and ugh perfect! So guess what you've got a book out!! It's so good. John Green does your intro your mom and dad write a fair amount along with some doctors and what not but they add lots of your words and basically ... Not to be to up front but you're my favorite author . Speaking of Mr. Green I AM ALSO A HUGE NERDFIGHTER! He dedicate a book to you it's called " The Fault in Our Stars" it's sooo good they made a movie which -I can only say it in one way- is all the rave . The main Character is Hazel Grace Lancaster , GRACE yeah IKR !!! So beyond awesome. :) also you're kinda a big thing in the NerdFigther world ya even bigger than you where before !! You're the bomb diggity my friend! So I'll talk to you later cause Jk Rowlings got a movie that she's making and unfortunately there's no book to go with that but I'll tell ya all about it full detail and I'll talk to you just in general .. If that's good with you. So stay awesome in the sky you crazy cool kiddo hehe
Erin Ralph Johnson
Erin DFTBA
Hi Esther!

I never knew you when you were alive, which is so sad for me! I found out about your lovely, heart wrenching story through John Green's The Fault In Our Stars, which I happened to read clearly at God's nudging. I am so grateful to know of you and your story, to have been able to connect with your parents on Facebook (I love that they're so sweet and accessible!) and be able to be apart of this amazing story. I hope you're having an amazing time in Heaven...how could you not??? I can't wait to see you when I eventually get there (hopefully many moons from now!). In the meantime I wanted to express my love and gratitude for your awesomeness! I am a better person because of you! 

~Erin 

Sarah Friedman
Sarah Friedman
I am almost done reading This Star Won't Go Out! I really wish I got the chance to meet Esther because I think we would have a lot to talk about as I am also a major fan of Harry Potter! I found out about Hazel through an amazing author John Green. I watched vlog brothers and John would talk about Esther and so later on I found some of Esther's video blogs and I just fell in love with them! Esther is a really big inspiration to me!


REST IN AWESOME!!!!
Cassie Mitchell
Cassie Mitchell
July 10, 2014 Thursday 12:00pm


I have been reading This Star Won't Go Out and I can't tell you how much of an inspiration Esther is to me. I found out about this amazing book from the phenomenal author John Green. About a year ago I read a book titled The Fault In Our Stars by him and I read who it was dedicated to. So I finished TFIOS and then looked up Esther's name and I found the book. I got the book after begging for quite a bit and I am so happy that I have the book. I also watch John and Hank's videos on YouTube, which is where I heard about the book again. Esther has been such an inspiration and I also write journals. I was happy to find out that she wrote too. I also donated 10 inches of my hair in honor of Hazel Grace Lancaster and Esther for my birthday in March.


Long Live Esther Grace Earl. Xx








Cristina Yang
Alex
Hello!
My name is Alexandra, 25 years old and I'm from Germany. I first read John Green's "The fault in our stars" and then noticed the dedication to Esther.
I just looked this up, stumbled over TSWGO and ordered the book immediately.
I really was touched about all of you struggling for and with Esther. I was touched about her way of thinking about life. About herself living life to its fullest. About her funny comments and her thoughtful ones.
Now, after finishing this book, I also have to say that Esther leaves some impression on me. I haven't known her, I even didn't know about her existence but just by reading this book or watching her videos - although I still don't know her, she touches me deep in my heart.

Dear Esther, you ARE incredibly AWESOME! In your whole human being - you're awesome. I really hope that you now can run around without any oxygen machine, laughing a lot and enjoying yourself (and writing books!).

Dear family of Esther,
please continue having the faith and strength to live life to its fullest, too!
There's nothing greater for a child to experience the love and support of its family. I'm sure (and I'm also sure you know) that Esther was really greatful to you all! Thank you for sharing her thoughts and feelings with this book with the world. Let her friends know her even better and other people, too.
julia lima
julia lima
hi my name is julia I am 14 years old and live in Brazil I just have little time to read the book of Esther and it is simply incredible her story but she wanted to be known only to read his story already'm thankful because I'm fan jhon and it was thanks to him that I read the book because it is the fault of the stars is dedicated to her and if I had one wish it would have known esther is simply incredible very very very incredible it inspired me her book makes us laugh, cry but he brings something that I never knew I had in me want to be like esther was and am very grateful to have known her story
A BIG KISS ONE OF THE BIGGEST FANS OF ESTHER
and if the translation is bad is the fault of google kkkkkkkk
Jillian Harper
Jillian
I just got done reading This Star Won't Go Out!! I want to start off by saying thank you for sharing the words of Esther. I am not a big reader--never have been--but I got this book in the morning and had it read by the late night. I just couldn't set it down. While reading her story I took breaks to watch the videos she made on YouTube (corresponding with her journal entries in which she talked about each video). I can only imagine all the thoughts that went through Esther's head and I thank her for taking the time to write such a numerous amount of her thoughts down. I also can't even begin to imagine the pain she went through the years she had cancer. Despite the pain, however, her story never showed signs of her taking her guard down. I just think it's amazing how, to the end, Esther had such a great outlook on life. Her words are a great lesson to teenagers and adults alike and her words will live on forever. I would truly like to meet her, and I'm sure I'll have that opportunity one day where I too walk with Him in the "green hillside with a really blue sky, and lots of pink and colorful flowers." Some infinities are in fact bigger than others and I think Esther's infinity will be forever living not only in your hearts but in the hearts of anyone and everyone that has had the amazing opportunity to hear her story in her own words. 
Kiyon Cho
Kiyon Cho
Dear Esther,
I am really sorry for your passing. You seemed like such an awesome person from all that I've read and seen (I'm subscribed to your YouTube channel) of you. I read your book, and the book dedicated to you. You seemed like such a strong and truly happy person. I didn't know you, Esther. Keeping that in mind, I probably shouldn't even be posting this now, but I know OF you. Your story has inspired me, and given me that extra boost that was needed. Your struggles with cancer are truly heart breaking, yet your positive attitude makes up for it. Esther, you are my role model. And, repeating myself, I didn't know you, but you seemed like a happy and intelligent writer who loves Harry Potter. If you really are that, then I want to be just like you. Esther, you have left your mark on this world, except it is not a scar like Augustus had said. It's such a shame that such a good soul was wasted, but the Lord knows what he's doing, and hopefully He now has you safely with him in Heaven. But, yeah. Getting off of THAT sad topic, YOU MISSED THE LAST HARRY POTTER MOVIE! It was great. It pretty much stuck to the book, but nothing is perfect, so there is ALWAYS at least one change. Currently, they're making a new Harry Potter movie, one that does not have a book to coincide with it, so when it comes out, I'll be back to tell you all about it. See ya around, Esther.
Clara Veloso
Clara Veloso
dear esther,

I hope that where you are able to read all these wonderful messages that leave here on your page. Your friend John Green wrote a wonderful book in honor of you (can already be proud). The book of your life is extraordinary! It's a shame that the world has lost a star like you! Rest in Peace Star!
Dilekk Kısacık
Dilekk Kısacık
Hi Esther... you and I recognized all over the world. God loves you so it must be you must be. In the world we would have been left. I am in Turkey, if you are with your family and all the while touring the country this is a little... but it seems impossible under the Stars of the film and kitanindan after this story cannot be empty then I said, I have heard thee I have read, watched, I knew I love You... Esther, we wait for us in heaven...
Cassie Mitchell
Cassie Mitchell
July 10, 2014 Thursday 12:00pm


I have been reading This Star Won't Go Out and I can't tell you how much of an inspiration Esther is to me. I found out about this amazing book from the phenomenal author John Green. About a year ago I read a book titled The Fault In Our Stars by him and I read who it was dedicated to. So I finished TFIOS and then looked up Esther's name and I found the book. I got the book after begging for quite a bit and I am so happy that I have the book. I also watch John and Hank's videos on YouTube, which is where I heard about the book again. Esther has been such an inspiration and I also write journals. I was happy to find out that she wrote too. I also donated 10 inches of my hair in honor of Hazel Grace Lancaster and Esther for my birthday in March.


Long Live Esther Grace Earl. Xx








Tadi T
Tadi T
Hi i am Tadi from Germany. I first wasn't sure if I should buy Esther's book because I had read a little of it before and just some pages made me think about love and life so hard I kept thinking about Esther ever since. But eventually I bought it which was the best decision. Normally I am the kind of person who reads quick to learn what happens at the end but this time I read slowly and carefully because I felt that I should appreciate every single story shared in the book. It changed my view of things especially love and giving back. Esther gave so much to so many people and also every time I walk somewhere I am thankful that I am able to just walk and don't think about it, that I am healthy. I cried a lot while reading and I feel so angry that such a special person had to die and honestly how cruel is the world to let Esther (and others) handle such unhandable things :( after I finished I just sat for a while and thought and after that I called people I love and told them I loved them. Thank you Esther and also the Earl family for sharing this story. ★
Jillian Harper
Jillian
I just got done reading This Star Won't Go Out!! I want to start off by saying thank you for sharing the words of Esther. I am not a big reader--never have been--but I got this book in the morning and had it read by the late night. I just couldn't set it down. While reading her story I took breaks to watch the videos she made on YouTube (corresponding with her journal entries in which she talked about each video). I can only imagine all the thoughts that went through Esther's head and I thank her for taking the time to write such a numerous amount of her thoughts down. I also can't even begin to imagine the pain she went through the years she had cancer. Despite the pain, however, her story never showed signs of her taking her guard down. I just think it's amazing how, to the end, Esther had such a great outlook on life. Her words are a great lesson to teenagers and adults alike and her words will live on forever. I would truly like to meet her, and I'm sure I'll have that opportunity one day where I too walk with Him in the "green hillside with a really blue sky, and lots of pink and colorful flowers." Some infinities are in fact bigger than others and I think Esther's infinity will be forever living not only in your hearts but in the hearts of anyone and everyone that has had the amazing opportunity to hear her story in her own words. 
Samantha Sena
Samantha Sena
Hi Esther!!!
I'm Samantha, I really honestly don't know you but I'm hoping wherever you are and however your doing that your happy. I just started reading The Fault in Our Stars and its amazing, considering I'm a thirteen year old girl with no life this book is possibly the best thing thats ever happened to me. I really like greek mythology and ancient cultures and. . .  stuff XD so anyway I wish you a happy morning afternoon and night and eat some pie. . . .  Seriously eat some pie its good for you , or cake, pastries are good too. NERDFIGHTERS WHOOHOOO



Sarah Friedman
Sarah Friedman
I am almost done reading This Star Won't Go Out! I really wish I got the chance to meet Esther because I think we would have a lot to talk about as I am also a major fan of Harry Potter! I found out about Hazel through an amazing author John Green. I watched vlog brothers and John would talk about Esther and so later on I found some of Esther's video blogs and I just fell in love with them! Esther is a really big inspiration to me!


REST IN AWESOME!!!!
Ias Queiroz
Ias Queiroz
Hi, my name is Iasmim, 16 years old and I'm from Brazil. I bought the book This Star Won't Go Out and I'm in love with the story, the Esther's story is amazing. And I wanna say thank you to her family and friends. It's a amazing story and perfect, I would like to know her but.. So, that is it.. And I wanna say thank you to John Green too 'cause I read the fault in our stars and I didn't know that this book was inspired on her.. Rest in peace Esther.. we love you!
julia lima
julia lima
hi my name is julia I am 14 years old and live in Brazil I just have little time to read the book of Esther and it is simply incredible her story but she wanted to be known only to read his story already'm thankful because I'm fan jhon and it was thanks to him that I read the book because it is the fault of the stars is dedicated to her and if I had one wish it would have known esther is simply incredible very very very incredible it inspired me her book makes us laugh, cry but he brings something that I never knew I had in me want to be like esther was and am very grateful to have known her story
A BIG KISS ONE OF THE BIGGEST FANS OF ESTHER
and if the translation is bad is the fault of google kkkkkkkk
Lauren A-D
Lauren A-D
Hi Esther. So this is my first time saying anything to you. Yeah I could talk about how your death sucks and pisses me off but why? That's no fun. I wanted to tell you about the last Harry Potter movie so why talk about something so lame instead? Well I have no Idea why I would want to do that soooo I won't . So the movie. They followed the book pretty well but nothing's ever exact unfortunately ( ugh DX ) anyways Deaths- Fred's: saddest by far . George was so beyond devastated (cries forever) Tonk and Lupin: they die holding hands  DX just like in the book :( - :) - idk haha Bellatrix : so beyond perfect "NOT MY DAUGHTER YOU B*****!!!" Hahahaha it was the greatest !!!!!! Snape : (was actually right all along) lol u knew that already you read the books before - I did too but ya know - so he was right then people felt bad Nagina- NEVILLE WAS WEARING A SWEATER WHEN HE DID IT Voldemort : Crazy crazy battle of pure awesome "Harry" - very inspirational great graphics and DUMBLEDORE. Additions: turns out Neville had a huge crush on Luna! Ya it was awesome. Then you get to see the whole gang ..more or less... In 19 years It's soo beyond cute. :) . So yeah best movie ever also EXTRA Ron and Hermione first kiss rate : INFINITE STARS!! Funny and random and cute and ugh perfect! So guess what you've got a book out!! It's so good. John Green does your intro your mom and dad write a fair amount along with some doctors and what not but they add lots of your words and basically ... Not to be to up front but you're my favorite author . Speaking of Mr. Green I AM ALSO A HUGE NERDFIGHTER! He dedicate a book to you it's called " The Fault in Our Stars" it's sooo good they made a movie which -I can only say it in one way- is all the rave . The main Character is Hazel Grace Lancaster , GRACE yeah IKR !!! So beyond awesome. :) also you're kinda a big thing in the NerdFigther world ya even bigger than you where before !! You're the bomb diggity my friend! So I'll talk to you later cause Jk Rowlings got a movie that she's making and unfortunately there's no book to go with that but I'll tell ya all about it full detail and I'll talk to you just in general .. If that's good with you. So stay awesome in the sky you crazy cool kiddo hehe
Hailey Brown
Hailey Brown.
Hello Esther:]
I just wanted to go ahead and say thank you so much for everything. The book that you inspired John to write has changed my life and brought me into the wonderful world of Nerdfighteria.
Ever since I joined this community I feel like I'm learning about myself and finding me, which is a huge relief.
Nerdfighteria has impacted me in ways you couldn't imagine.
I hope you're doing well on the other side Esther. I don't know what I would have done without Nerdfighteria and John and Hank and all the nerdfighters' support.  So thank you again. 
Erin Ralph Johnson
Erin DFTBA
Hi Esther!

I never knew you when you were alive, which is so sad for me! I found out about your lovely, heart wrenching story through John Green's The Fault In Our Stars, which I happened to read clearly at God's nudging. I am so grateful to know of you and your story, to have been able to connect with your parents on Facebook (I love that they're so sweet and accessible!) and be able to be apart of this amazing story. I hope you're having an amazing time in Heaven...how could you not??? I can't wait to see you when I eventually get there (hopefully many moons from now!). In the meantime I wanted to express my love and gratitude for your awesomeness! I am a better person because of you! 

~Erin 

Sarah Friedman
Sarah Friedman
It's been a few years since Esther passed away but I just wanted to let her know that I am currently reading her book This Star Won't Go Out and it has inspired me to keep a journal because I have been going through a lot this year and being a 13 year old girl I wasn't really sure how to handle my emotions and keeping a journal has really helped! I hope you're having fun in heaven please say hi to my grandma for me! Love Sarah
Cristina Yang
Alex
Hello!
My name is Alexandra, 25 years old and I'm from Germany. I first read John Green's "The fault in our stars" and then noticed the dedication to Esther.
I just looked this up, stumbled over TSWGO and ordered the book immediately.
I really was touched about all of you struggling for and with Esther. I was touched about her way of thinking about life. About herself living life to its fullest. About her funny comments and her thoughtful ones.
Now, after finishing this book, I also have to say that Esther leaves some impression on me. I haven't known her, I even didn't know about her existence but just by reading this book or watching her videos - although I still don't know her, she touches me deep in my heart.

Dear Esther, you ARE incredibly AWESOME! In your whole human being - you're awesome. I really hope that you now can run around without any oxygen machine, laughing a lot and enjoying yourself (and writing books!).

Dear family of Esther,
please continue having the faith and strength to live life to its fullest, too!
There's nothing greater for a child to experience the love and support of its family. I'm sure (and I'm also sure you know) that Esther was really greatful to you all! Thank you for sharing her thoughts and feelings with this book with the world. Let her friends know her even better and other people, too.
Mardi Celli
Mardi Celli
You've impacted me, in the best possible way.
                         Thank you, Esther Earl for gracing me with your life. Even if through just a book. You're an inspiration Esther, I wish it would have been in gods plan for you to see all these lovely messages being sent to you. 
                                                                       You Deserve It. 
            
                                                                                                                                                - mardi 
Kiyon Cho
Kiyon Cho
Dear Esther,
I am really sorry for your passing. You seemed like such an awesome person from all that I've read and seen (I'm subscribed to your YouTube channel) of you. I read your book, and the book dedicated to you. You seemed like such a strong and truly happy person. I didn't know you, Esther. Keeping that in mind, I probably shouldn't even be posting this now, but I know OF you. Your story has inspired me, and given me that extra boost that was needed. Your struggles with cancer are truly heart breaking, yet your positive attitude makes up for it. Esther, you are my role model. And, repeating myself, I didn't know you, but you seemed like a happy and intelligent writer who loves Harry Potter. If you really are that, then I want to be just like you. Esther, you have left your mark on this world, except it is not a scar like Augustus had said. It's such a shame that such a good soul was wasted, but the Lord knows what he's doing, and hopefully He now has you safely with him in Heaven. But, yeah. Getting off of THAT sad topic, YOU MISSED THE LAST HARRY POTTER MOVIE! It was great. It pretty much stuck to the book, but nothing is perfect, so there is ALWAYS at least one change. Currently, they're making a new Harry Potter movie, one that does not have a book to coincide with it, so when it comes out, I'll be back to tell you all about it. See ya around, Esther.