Emma Geiger's Journal
Written Mar 8, 2010 1:24amHey Everyone!
Emma here once again. Not a whole lot to report on, except that I'm going to Ohio on the 25th to get a check up. Nothing major, I'm thinking. Just going to try and figure out the pain, and to see what exactly is happening with the pacemaker biz.
While i'm down there I think I might be interviewed for the fundraiser letter for Gastroparesis. Pretty cool, if I do say so myself. I got some kind of thing in the mail about it and they even sent me a spiffy bracelette.
Days seem to be coming and going, filled with surprises. One day I'll be fine, not feeling so well the next. But it's getting better. Since I haven't been in school (for the past week) I haven't been stressing over that so much. So it's helping and was all in all a good choice for me to stop going.
So much has been going on!
Life's good. Even when it's not. You've just sometimes gotta look for it.
I hope everyone is doing well. Fill me in on what you've been doing!
Written Feb 26, 2010 12:37pmTGIF Everyone;
This is just a little update. I really haven't been feeling well lately. I have no idea what it is, and I don't want to be complaining about the pacemaker, because I really thought this would be the answer. But it hasn't been working very well lately.
I've been really bloated and gassy (embarassing, but ya know) and now I have this new things, a serious pain. I've had a constant stomachache for 32 hours. It feels like an alien is going to burst out of my stomach and stuff.
I have no idea what's happening. I was looking on G-Pact's Webside (www.gpact.org) It's a website for paitents with gastroparesis; and there was this story where a woman had a pacemaker put in Dec. 2008, and then in January 2009 the leads went out and she had to have surgery again. I'm tired of surgeries and really hope thats not whats happening. I wish I knew what was happening. I'm so tired of feeling like this.
I might have to be taken out of regular school again and do full time Virtual. It really sucks, because I was excited to get back into the swing of things. It was nice to have something to look forward to and get ready for in the morning. But I haven't been able to make it, and when I'm there I feel awful. Hopefully next year will be my year.
I can't explain how sad I am.
Is it stupid that I actually feel bad for me? Probably, and a little selfish. But I just don't understand why I have to go through this. Or why anyone who has this has to go through it. I'm talking to nine different girls who have similar symptoms and everything to what I have. It's sad to know that they're all going through this stuff too. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't feel happy with myself or how things are. I'm tired of this holding me back from life. "Living with gastroparesis isn't living," I am so sad.
Written Feb 11, 2010 8:12amHey!
Here's my latest vlog.
It's pretty much the details of what happened
in good old Ohio (:
Hope to hear from you soon.