Next week is Easter and it has me remembering how special my Easter was last year. Last year, we brought Nelle home from the NICU on Easter Sunday. After what felt at the time like a lifetime, she was ready to come home to us. I remembering feeling like I could not contain my excitement but also terrible fear at the thought of keeping her alive all on our own, no nurses, doctors or machines...
It is so hard for me to remember the NICU days as anything other than wonderful at this point. I know there was pain, worry and fatigue but all I remember now is that Nelle lived, survived, thrived. After 122 days of waking up before the sun, driving to the hospital, falling asleep there while holding Nelle, blocking out the alarms with headphones, guarding her isolette like a crazed lioness, driving to work, driving back to the hospital, driving home and not even remembering to eat, we got her home, ALL TO OURSELVES.
The reason it is so hard for me to remember the difficulty, the exquisite pain and trauma of that NICU stay is because overall there was so much good. There were amazing nurses and doctors who loved our Nelle, who cared for her, who stayed in her room an extra hour to calm me or to watch over her, who took the time to teach us how to care for our fragile peanut. There were people praying for Nelle all across the country, sending encouraging notes and offering support. There was a world of medicine, machinery and science that worked together to create a womb for my daughter when mine failed. Miss Nelle is one blessed little girl to have benefited from all of this GOOD.
So how can I NOT to give other mothers, other families, other babies a chance for a miracle like Nelle's? Johnny, Nelle, Mason and I will be walking in the March for Babies with the BIDMC NICU team. We are trying to raise $1129 (Nelle's birthdate) to further research and funding for other babies that just cannot wait inside the womb as long as they should. Please check out our page and donate if you can, join our team, walk with us or just send up a prayer, anything helps!! http://www.marchforbabies.org/personal_page.asp?pp=5332581&ct=4&w=6754705&u=emilyrvazquez