I’ve been trying to find the right words to say. I’ve been searching for the perfect sentence. But, here I am, at a loss, because there really is no way for me to sugar coat the reality of what Liz is going through. While there is always room for hope and faith, at the same time you can’t deny the actuality of the circumstances at hand. The pain may have decreased since her move to hospice. However, the days have transformed into continual sleeping. Anymore, it’s a challenge getting Liz to open her eyes, and even more of a challenge getting her to become motivated to converse. She was to return to Mayo on August 18th for testing to see if any of the radiation or chemo had been successful in shrinking any of the tumors. That is no longer for certain. Her recent declines have made her current doctors worried about if her body would be able to withstand all that goes along with such a trip. They believe that her body is starting to shut down, and with all of the traveling and testing her body simply wouldn’t be able to handle it. Like I said earlier though, this decision isn’t set in stone. It’s really difficult to say that things aren’t looking good, because I know how hearing it makes my own heart ache.
You never think it’s going to happen to you. To someone you love. It will just never have to be an obstacle you’ll have to deal with. Wouldn’t it be so nice if this were true? You can’t predict life, or what’s really going to happen. They say while you spend your time planning everything out, life is what happens in the meantime. The truth in this statement is what I have recently found to be a very valuable life lesson.
Tragedy, apparently, is one event that does happen when you’re trying to plan everything else out. What tragedy brings is not only heartache, and complete loss of comprehension. Waves of new outlooks, appreciations, and insight pour over your heart and soul like water in the ocean. I think it’s safe to say this is, sadly, one of the ONLY positives to such a devastating situation. While much is un-certain, there is still the opportunity for change to take place. I wish I could explain all that suddenly gets put into perspective, or how much you learn about yourself, your life, and priorities. Above all, I wish I could explain how your view on friendship and its’ true meaning changes throughout such an experience. All in all, values on every aspect of life are transfigured into works of sheer art.
When this all began, I heard my mother proclaim how she felt blessed to have such great people in her life, and how she had truly found out who her friends were. I know how lost she was feeling before this happened, and I think we’ve all been in that place. That place where we’re so confused sometimes that it’s hard to look in the mirror, and understand to its entirety the meaning of the lives we lead. I think this horrible tragedy reminded her of just how many people love her for HER. I could see it in her eyes, and as she looked away a calm smile gleamed over her face. If anything, we can all wake up to the new day with a new motivation.
Whatever tomorrow brings, we all have each other.
God Bless.
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