Elizabeth Brock

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July 19, 2011 3:12pm

Hello everyone! I hope you are enjoying your summer! I had mentioned not too long ago that I would end my journal with the birth of our daughter. I have bittersweet feelings about this. I have grown so fond of the website that helped me so much through a difficult journey of mine, it's kind of like losing a friend, a crutch of sorts that helped me a long. Anyway, Piper Marie Brock was born on June 8, 2011 at 4:11 pm weighing in at 7lbs 15 oz and 20 inches long. She is absolutely beautiful and the best baby!! It was definitely an emotional experience. We have said all along how this is like the ending to a bad chapter in our lives. How God granted us with a special gift after all we had to go through. So finally being able to meet this wonderful gift was exciting. Not that any birth isn't exciting, and we were definitely excited with the birth of our son, but it just was a different feeling, a different mood. Seeing my husband looking at our little girl wiping tears from his eyes was one of the most emotional experiences I have ever had. He looked over at me with tears streaming down, smiled and just gave a look like "we are so blessed and this is all over and we are fine". He never said that but I could tell he was thinking it and I just smiled and nodded my head in agreeance. I have learned so much over the last several years. I have had many ups and downs as you all know about. I think today I can honestly say I am proud of how I have handled it all! I have learned so much about myself and other people. I have said before that you learn who you're real friend are and I did, and also learned to tell the difference between being real and being fake. I am putting myself, my family and my 2 beautiful children first. Things that, I feel, any mother should do. My job is to protect them and keep their lives free of anything that can harm them, physically and emotionally. I am making changes in my life to make sure that the values and beliefs we want to instill in our children are not hindered by outside sources, no matter who or what that is. And, some of these changes people may not agree with but I believe you can't judge anyone unless you walked a mile in their shoes. There is a poem that says "the final reward will be heartache and tears if you cheated the man in the glass". And I feel I was doing that, cheating myself and my children by trying to please others before us. I have realized the truth about a lot of people through these years and I will for once start putting us first. I want to thank you ALL for the prayers and support!! They have gotten me through this and I believe that with every bit of my heart!! Even though I won't be updating anymore your prayers are still welcomed! As you know, with my cancer, I am constantly being checked because thyroid cancer is like a garden, you can weed all you want but there is still weeds underneath that you can't see ready to pop up. I have had some bumps already since the birth of Piper but things are still being tested and looked at and I don't feel the need to go into details but prayers are still appreciated. The only time I will open this journal back up is if something comes back or I feel the need to continue to let you all know about anything significant and need prayers. Again, thank you all! Have a blessed life and remember not to cheat the man in the glass! I love you all!!