My story started June 25th,2008 with a diagnosis of Breast Cancer. I had surgery on July10th,2008 which was a double masectomy. Then my first of 8 rounds of Chemo on Aug 4th,2008. I had my last round Nov 17,2008 the day before my 39th birthday! Then went 2 years without symtoms. May 6th I was diagnost with the breast cancer back in my lungs, spine, ribs and lymph nodes. Will do 6 rounds of chemo and see what this new drug does.
I found a lump in my right breast on Sunday, June 8th. I found it because it hurt. It hurt enough for me to want to take Advil every 4 hours. So that next Monday, I call the clinic and got in on Thursday. I see Dr. Halvorson and he advises me to go to Fargo and do a mamogram. This is a procedure I have done every 2 years since the age of 30. My grandmother died at the age of 46 of Breast Cancer and my mom had questionable cells at the age of 35. I am 37, so just two years ago I had a mamogram. It was clear. Plus, a year ago I had the yearly exam that was also all clear.
I had an ultrasound and that showed a black area of about the size of a quarter. That is a little scary to see! Right from the Ultrasound I went into a room and had a biopsy. That was no picnic! So the Dr. called me on June 25th with the results of the biopsy. I was taking pictures of the Parks and Rec department in the park. 100 and some T-Ball and Soccer players. All young kids. The Dr told me he had bad news. It was cancer and it was aggressive. Out of 9 on a scale of 1-9 my aggressiveness was an 8. Although that just meant that it was growing fast, not spreading fast.
From there I saw a team of Doctors to set up the next steps in getting rid of this. I did have to do Chemotherapy, but not radiation. My first 4 rounds of Chemo would be with one drug and the last 4 with another. Once that is done I will be on a pill for 5 to 10 years.
I would like to do reconstruction sometime and I am looking forward to that being my "prize" when I am done with Chemo. I would like to do the tram flap reconstruction. That means that they will take my stomach fat and make boobs. I will need to get a DD to take all the fat I want gone. Well, maybe more but lets not go down that road.
On the 10 month anniversary of losing the love of my life, and the day before Thanksgiving, I want to stop and give thanks to a women who made me feel so very thankful for every day that we were blessed to share together. Thank you Tooter for your love. Thank you for teaching me the real meaning of true love when I didn't think it really existed. Thank you for your friendship for almost 30 year...s. Thank you for showing us all how to live with grace, dignity and how to live with a smile on your face as you carried a cross for your God. Thank you for being a testament to His glory and His love for all of us. Thank you for changing the lives of so many people in ways they may never even realize. Thank you for teaching me that the simplest things in life are the most important. You showed how family is the most treasured and valued gift we can have. I wake up every day missing you, and I go to bed every night missing you. I am so very thankful that God gave us to each other. There are not words to say how much I miss you, but at the same time I am so very happy that you are with the Father in paradise, where there is no cancer or pain. I am so very proud of you for everything you gave to me, Ashlynn, Logan, our families, friends and to everyone around you. You touched us all so deeply and I will never forget you or your sweet love. Happy Thanksgiving Tooter. You are always on my mind and always in my heart.