It seems impossible that Alex has been gone for four years. Of course sometimes it seems like forever since we've seen him, held him, or talked to him. But then it just somehow doesn't seem like four years since we had to say goodbye. You know, this is the first time I remember hearing about the night before. I remember all too well the events of the morning. I relive it time and time again when I lie down at night. I realize that you do as well. My heart breaks for losing Alex and it continues to break to know the pain and suffering that I know that you, Brian, and Anna endure daily. When someone you love dearly hurts, you hurt too. I had another dream about Alex a few weeks ago and I didn't want to wake up. We will never get over losing him in this world and I can't wait to be with him again in the next. I love you all with all my heart.