Where do you turn, how do you cope, when you feel like you've had enough, but it's just not over yet? When your friends and family are saying things like 'you've been through enough', 'you shouldn't have to go through anything else'. I recently told someone that it didn't help me to hear that. Falling into the ' feeling sorry for myself or why me mode' accomplishes nothing - but misery and depression. I speak from experience! I have 4 friends right now, one who is seemingly losing her battle with AML , another who just had a double mastectomy, another battling stage 4 malignant melanoma and another recovering from heart surgery, who need my thoughts and prayers. And you know what the beautiful thing is? They are all praying for me. I know that's how it's supposed to work - that loving your neighbor as yourself stuff. The world teaches us to focus on me, me, me. Wrong, wrong, wrong!!! You will live unfulfilled and unsatisfied. So I look for ways, even in these days of big, fat, painful lymph nodes, fevers,achiness and just flat out feeling crummy, to reach out to my dear friends who are suffering. Physically I can do nothing for them right now, but a phone call or a card are things I can manage - we all can.
Unfortunately my lymph node needle biopsy was inconclusive, so this week I will need to have an open biopsy to remove a node. On the upside, my blood work still looked excellent! And so the mystery continues. I would appreciate your prayers for perseverance and courage - oh, and of course, healing!
Be Not Afraid
O My child, rest in Me.
Yes, quietly settle down in My care, as a bird settles in a nest.
For I am watching over you, and in love I will care for you.
There is no danger with which I am unable to cope.
There is no enemy too formidable for Me to handle.
I am able to carry out all My purposes,
and to keep you at the same time.
Be not afraid;
neither allow terror to strike at your heart.
My power is at your disposal.
My presence stands around you,
and nothing can harm you so long as you are in My care,
and that is forever.....
Come Away My Beloved Frances J. Roberts
Trusting in Him - love, Deb
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