It has been awhile since i last posted,Davids one year of being with god and his angels has passed and what a hard week that was for our entire family,in the morning on the 31st, I was so depressed and thought how can i make it through this day,then i talked to David, told him how much we all loved and missed him and asked if i could have a sign that he was ok,all of a sudden i felt peace, again my son with us all through out the day,later that evening we went to Davids favorite chinese restaurant, we laughed had alot of fun,but still there is such a big hole in our lives without him,

Davids dad Richard is going through such a rough time and was hospitalized during this time, I pray that he can find the peace he so desperately needs, The boys are up and down, some days are good for them and others are not,I worry about them so much and hope all i am doing is helping them in some way, The boys are not wanting to go to church anymore and this is a new battle that has been going on the last couple of months, im not sure what to do about this, i can understand their anger, but i dont want them to lose faith in god,

David fight with that horrible disease and in the end looseing his life has not been in vain, they are useing what they learned from David as a case study and Dr Vik said already they have changed some things in treating other kids with HLH from what David taught them,David was always my angel, and i truely believe he was put here to help save others, and i am so proud to be his mother and so blessed to of had my baby for 17years 5 months and 2 days,His memory will live on not only in the hearts of who knew him but also in the hearts of the kids he will touch for years to come,Please continue to pray for our family.