I am actually doing better today then I thought I would be. Maybe it's the beautiful sunshine outside. I am blessed to have two beautiful, healthy kids. They have shone what wonderful adults they have become over the last few months. I am trying to remember the wonderful day I had last year on May 12. I wore a beautiful dress, had a great youth group cheering us on and a handsome, wonderful man waiting for me at the end of the aisle. I guess at least I know he really loved me as much as I loved him. When I danced with him that day it made me so very happy and to have my children there was a huge blessing. I will never forget what a wonderful man God sent to me and I know that David wants me to be happy so that is what I am going to try very hard to do starting now. I am sure there will be hard lonely days ahead, but I am ready for some good ones again too.