Well....I tried to update on Mother's Day, but as you can all see...it didn't go so well. WOW...what a heartwrenching TOUGH day that was. I was just a mess the whole day and to be totally honest, that day couldn't end fast enough for me! Missing Coop and wishing he was here with us, his lil body and those big brown eyes looking at me with so much love and remembering last year when he made me breakfast and the flowers he picked from the neighbors flower pot (lol). Always so precious, affectionate, sweet and kind.
It was a nice day, but just wasn't the same. Now that the weather is warming up and I get back into the back yard more and more, I just see him everywhere...playing, laughing smiling, eating popcicle after popcicle and running around with the neighbor kids with his lil bug box in one hand...catching bugs and digging in the dirt.
Last night I layed in bed with the door open out to my patio and all I could hear where crickets...and I immediately thought of Cooper and then...his frog. He loved that speckled frog...I'm surprised that thing lived as long as it did! But...as I lay there and closed my eyes and just listened....i heard all the beautiful things that made him smile so.....nature.....of course I cried, as if I haven't cried enough already,then I realized how much the simple things in life like listening to crickets put such a smile on his face...and now it was putting a smile on mine... I hope you all take the time to find the beautiful things in life...usually it's all around you, you just have to open your eyes and listen.
I love you Cooper, you have taught me more in your few years than I ever thought possible!! Always in my thoughts FOREVER in my heart.... your in every sunset, every sunrise and every bug I EVER see!!
Big Kisses!!
Mommy
