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On May 19, 2006 my life changed forever. My husband Kris had a motor vehicle accident that killed him and my 6 year old son Adam. Conner was one at the time, and suffered a spinal cord injury at C1, 2 and 3. The doctors told me the night of the accident to prepare myself because Conner would never survive through the night. We had thousands of people praying for Conner that night and for God to do a miracle in him! I have never prayed so hard before in my life for something. I just begged God to let Conner live. I needed him. I was 29 years old and just lost everything that was precious to me! I had no idea how I was ever going to survive this tragedy. That is the thing though, without God you can't survive a tragedy as great as this! Well clearly you can see that Conner survived through the night. The next few weeks were really hard though. The doctors told me that Conner was going to have no quality of life and would be paralyzed from the neck down. He was also in a coma and ended up coming down with spinal meningitis. His outcome did not look good. He was on a ventilator and couldn't breath on his own. The doctors told me that I needed to let Conner go. They even went as far to tell me that they would put him in my lap and let me rock him to sleep (death)! I was mortified!! I told them there was no way I was going to do that, and that God could have taken Conner when the accident happened. It wasn't a survivable accident! God saved him from the wreck for a reason! I told them I was having faith and believing in God to heal Conner! They did not support my decision and told me I was being very selfish and not thinking about Conner's quality of life! I told them that God could take Conner right now if he wanted him. I told them that where there is life, you always choice life! Today I am so thankful that I put my faith and trust in God! Conner is a living miracle, and yes we have had a very hard road to follow and continue to have a huge journey in front of us, but the blessings God has given us along the way, have been absolutely amazing! It has been almost 7 years since the accident happened and Conner is making great strides everyday! He is able to breath on his own off the vent for over an hour right now. Which if he can breath an hour on his own, he will continue to get stronger and be able to come off the ventilator one day!! We just have to keep praying and believing! He has all feeling and sensation throughout his body! He can use his arms to roll over from his side to his back! He gets stronger and stronger everyday! God also brought love back into my life again, and I remarried 2 years ago! He is a great man of God and is a great daddy to Conner! God has blessed our lives more than I could ever imagine or deserve! We do still have hard days and struggles, but God is always faithful to take care of our every single need! We are believing that God will completely heal Conner one day and he will be a walking testimony for God! I pray that God uses him and his testimony for his GLORY and KINGDOM!!! We appreciate all the prayers you lift up to God on behalf of Conner! We ask that you continue to pray and believe with us that God is going to completely heal Conner! We serve and AWESOME and AMAZING God!!!
But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Mar 3, 2014 7:51pmHello everyone! I hope you are all having a great week! Conner has still been having a lot of issues the last couple of weeks! Last week his poor doctors had to really work hard to figure out what is going on with Conner! His pancreas levels started going back up on us last week, but Praise the Lord they came back down without going into full blown pancreatitis! We are still watching him and praying that his levels stay down. We are guessing the antibiotic he was on for the bacteria infections he picked up while in the hospital a few weeks ago, must have caused some issues with his pancreas. He finished the antibiotic yesterday though! We are still having issues with his bladder and kidney though. Friday they sent us for a CT scan and his left kidney is still not wanting to drain properly. The urologist thinks we are going to have to do the ureter transplant that he talked to us about a couple of months ago. In case you don't remember, a couple of months ago, Conner's ureter completely kinked up and his kidney was obstructed because of it. The doctor had to place a stint in to open the ureter. That is when he noticed that he was born with the head of his ureters to short. He called and talked to our urologist specialist in Dallas and he told him this is probably going to be the only option if he continues to have trouble. Well we clearly are still having problems!! This is not the option I wanted to hear about Friday after the CT scan! I was so depressed and devastated after hearing that he was probably going to need to have this surgery done! I am thankful though that this isn't spinal cord injury related, and just something he was born with! We are hoping that they will be able to get us into the specialist this week, because watching him continue to hurt and not want to urinate at all is not fun for this momma to watch!! I know he is just miserable!!! My heart breaks for him that he has to keep going through so much right now! Me and Robbin have tons of questions though for the doctor, and want to make sure there is no other options out there before we just jump right into doing this surgery! I know there may not be any other option though! If that is the case, we will do what we have to do to get him better. We just don't want to end up damaging his kidney! The way the surgery works though, is they actually use his ureter, not sure why they call it a transplant, but they would cut his ureter from the bladder and move them to a different spot to make the head of the ureter bigger. This is a very major surgery and will be hard on him! That is why I was just beside myself to know that he is still having issues! I just hate for him to have to go through something like this!! God brought it to my attention though, that he loves Conner way more than I do. That is very hard to comprehend, because my love for him is HUGE!! I know he has Conner in the palm of his hand though!! So no matter what we face in the future, he will 100% continue to take care of Conner! He has already touched so many lives through Conner. I know he has BIG plans for Conner's future! So we will keep believing and standing strong in his word!! Please be praying that God will lead our every step that we need to take on this path!! It is so hard to know if you are making the right decisions sometimes with things that are so complicated like this!
We haven't gotten to do just tons of therapy or the diaphragm pacers on Conner the last couple of weeks. He just hasn't felt good and hasn't been sleeping good at night! So we have only been doing what he feels like doing! He is a tough little guy though, because I wouldn't feel like doing much of anything if I was him. But he always lets me work him for a little bit everyday. I will keep you all updated on what we find out though! Just pray it doesn't take forever to get into the Urologist in Dallas though!! I am tired of watching my baby hurt!!
I do have a praise report on my step-dad! He went and got the second opinion in the city a couple of weeks ago. The oncologist there was a lot more positive than what he got here. They said there is about a 40% chance if he did chemo that it would shrink the tumor. It won't get rid of it, but there is a good chance it will shrink it! He did have to do a brain scan this past week, to make sure the cancer hadn't moved to his brain. If it had, they wouldn't be able to do chemo. Praise The Lord, there was NO cancer in his brain!!!!! So he will start Chemo on March 17th. They will do 3 rounds of it first, then do another PET scan to see if it has shrunk the tumor any. If it has shrunk the tumor, then they will continue with the chemo. If it hasn't shrunk the tumor, then they will stop chemo. Please be praying that he doesn't have many bad side effects from the chemo, and please be praying hard that the chemo works and will shrink the tumor. His iron levels are really low right now, so be praying that they can get his iron levels up some before starting the chemo. Pray for God to do a miracle in his body!!
We are so thankful and grateful for all of our amazing prayer warriors that are in our lives!! I honestly don't know where we would be without all of you!! Thank you for being the hands and feet of Jesus in our lives!! We love you all and hope you all have a wonderful week!!
With man this is impossible, but with God, all things are possible!! Mark 10:27
Believe in me. Trust me, and I will show you how much I can do. Even when things seem impossible, you can trust me to do what I say I will do. Nothing is too hard for me!!
I love it when God speaks to me through his word! That was in Conner's child version of Jesus Calling devotional book that we read yesterday!
Robbin, Sonya, and Conner
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