Hello all,

Hope everyone is doing ok!! This has been a bit of a week for us. Things have been well, very up and down with more of the latter. The beginning of the week I really struggled with all of the what ifs of our situation. For those of you who have gone through things like this before, you know that when you can't fall asleep at night and the shower tend to be the times that things haunt you. I still remember very vividly after my mom died, the feeling of the 'empty house'- the home that has suffered an irreparable loss and now exists in abject emptiness. I couldn't shake the vision of my girls in that empty house calling my name with no one to answer, no one to greet them when they wanted to run into mommy's arms. I can't get that image out of my head. It has really been torturing me this past week. Maybe it was all those nights fretting and not sleeping that caused my neck to go into very painful spasms early Weds. We ended up going to the MD who even admitted it was an abnormal amount of pain in an unlikely place. We got an MRI just to make sure it wasn't the cancer, and thankfully it wasn't. But thinking that plans and hopes may change yet again was very hard all Wednesday. These other days I've been trying my darndest to not lift, stoop, etc and let my neck heal. Thankfully today, I can actually turn my head a little bit left which hasn't been the case these last few days. The highlight of this week was our 3D sono yesterday - we actually got to see our little guy and watch him sleep and touch his face. It was the first sono Todd has gotten to see, so we were happy we could actually do something positive together. As for the pics, I think we'll keep those to ourselves and as Mary did, just contemplate it in our hearts and let y'all be surprised when he presents himself. We likely will be delivering 12/3, so right before Christmas. Anyway, we are as always, still ambushed with other things to do. Our MRI is next week, so please say a special prayer for that. We probably won't know what the results are for a few days, but we will let you all know by the next week. Sometimes a girl needs some time to digest things before broadcasting it to the world, so please understand if I don't write you that very night. It all really has me quite nervous.

Thank you all for those continued prayers as they are so needed!

God Bless and G'Night