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March 26, 2013 12:30pm
Hello All,
Today is what would have been my baby boy’s 6th
birthday. I can’t fathom what the
little boy who never lived to see his 2nd birthday would be like at
6. Would he be like his older
sister, sassy yet shy? Perhaps
like his little sister, bold and fearless? Instead it is like many of time’s
eternal mysteries and I will simply never know. He is and will always be 21 months in my mind.
So today I will celebrate his beginning. When I was so naïve to how the story
would end. When I held him in my
arms for the first time and I was overwhelmed with blinding love. When your heart swells with such
happiness that you can hardly breathe.
When the future was hopeful.
When I was the lucky Mommy who could hold him, nurse him, sing to him or
softly attack his round cheeks with gentle kisses. Back when there was hope. I celebrate my Monkey for all the joy and love he brought to
our family. For filling a hole in
my life that I didn’t know existed. Today I will focus on the beginning. On awe-inspiring, insurmountable
love.
Happy Birthday Baby.
With Love Forever,
Mommy
